I dont' want to do anything, so I decided to write here, just because ( Read more... )

Yesterday, the 13th, marks the 1 year anniversary or our last conversation. I've been staring at her picture, reminising about the times I almost got close to her. I know I don't feel as bad now as I did 1 year ago, but I certainly don't feel good about it. I hope my thoughts will go away soon. I need to move on, but it's so hard to leave the ( Read more... )

Ok, Ok.... Ok. ok... man... it's been a while since I've posted, but this is very deserving of a post.... it's 3 AM, no one is on AIM, and I'm not even at home, and I just found out the biggest news of the past 2 years for me. Oh my god. Oh my god oh my god. Ok. I'll try to calm down. But, yeah, ok. I'm not sure if this is bad or great, it's hard ( Read more... )

With my limited access to the internet, I have decided to once again see how things are going in the cyberworld of gossip, deception, and generaly boring times. I realize that after a summer of talking to virtually no one, I really don't see the whole point of sharing things. More or less, I really can't think of anything I want/need to share. But ( Read more... )

So, I'm going home tomarrow. Yippy skippy. I won't have the internet for a while, but I may come on every once and a while over a friends house or something. My phone number is 437-8534 at home, so gimme a call if you wanna 'chill' or something, I dunno the local slang. Ok, yeah. Good times.

So, I've decided to boycott the internet for 2 whole days. This means I'll be back thursday, unless I give up and give into temptation before then. Just cause it's HORRIBLY messed up the way I'm thinking and acting, and it could possibly cost me a possible future relationship. So, this is a test, it's only two days, and I'll be back again before I ( Read more... )

Awesome. After several days of wierd conversation, I finally feel like I'm normal. I think it's a combonation of being cooked up in my room and having this very important conversation being on the internet, which I hate, it's so impersonal. But I am happy now, and I think things will be better. I am glad I feel better right before the summer, cause ( Read more... )

Something ACTUALLY happened in my life. It's quite amazing. My aunt invited me to go out with her family to a nice italian restaurant for her mother's day lunch, and so I did. I haven't been feeling good since thursday, when I walked and got nausous and dizzy. So, anyway, on the ride home, I don't feel good. I ask my uncle to pull over, but it's ( Read more... )

I ran into that punk girl again. She was outside the door to the building talking to some dude, which I'm not surprised at. She's still really beautiful; It's a shame we never even talked to each other, she seems really cool. So now I'm mopey and sad. I'm probably going to get some food now, and see if I run into the only peole that come close to ( Read more... )

Ok, so, I went to class today. It required a lot of walking, and it hurt my legs after a while. I also saw the therapist, and we spoke for half an hour about something pointless again, this time about theory in physics, which may be my career path. Blah blah blah, I spent lots of time in my room doing nothing, surprise there. I took a shower last ( Read more... )