great music tonight at the all too familiar coffee shop. free drink. random smiles ( Read more... )

I knew I was regretting the mistakes id made when I heard this song and broke down.. I could only hide it for so long. act like I didnt care, for so long. be numb to it all, for so long. im regretting having screwed up time and time again. messed with his emotions, his insecurities. what did i do.. carelessness.. the free spirit in me when wild ( Read more... )

Here's another speech you wish I'd swallow ( Read more... )

each day I am more and more upset with myself, and my lack of trying to make things right, better. it really is a 'time' issue, but what if youre only allotted a certain amount in which you should progress toward better? What do you do then? bypass the now seemingly important, in an effort to save the squandering mess ups? Either way I feel I'll ( Read more... )

Dont read my distance as intentional (not right now) I need to talk.. and want to.. but They've scheduled me all weekend and ive got assignments due mon.. along with midterms this week. Im finding a place safe enough to stop, and get this all straightened out. I'm hoping the time is convenient for both of us... that it will have allowed us both to ( Read more... )

Ahh, rest easy tonight Blair. Paranoia deminished ( Read more... )

"Oops, there goes my shirt, up over my head... Oh my ( Read more... )

It had better not be drugs. I'm better than any amount of illegal or legal substance.

"I want our bathroom to be like golden colors and oranges." - I typed as she said this to me. hehe. I can't wait. It was totally and completely "us".. everything about it screamed "YES"... Even the number 2 on the door... Adorable. I just got really giggly thinking about it all coming together. The feel of being 'home'... being with my best friend ( Read more... )

Ive failed myself and those around me once AGAIN. I honestly wish there were better words right now.. nothing seems to be enough to express my feelings of regret. I'm sorry Ive hurt you. I beg youto fogive me. Stupid words I know.. but if you knew with how much sincerety I said them... perhaps that would make a difference. You don't need the sorrow ( Read more... )