Weirdness

[kali_ya]

I spent a good portion - ok most - of my life depressed and wishing it was.over already and tonight I realized that I no longer feel that way. In fact I'm extremely happy, so much so that I'm not ready to go because I have so much to live for. It's a weird feeling, alien, but nice.

The world won't be ending in December, and for once I'm pretty

Comments

[trepkos]

Wonderful - was this spontaneous, or did something in your life change?

[kali_ya]

No it was a gradual change, so much so that I didn't notice until I had one of those thoughts and it felt so wrong that it shocked me.

I think it has a lot to do with the ending of the Mayan calendar/change in consciousness that is occurring now. I feel rewarded for having endured so much for so long - "so much, so long" as in lifetimes upon lifetimes worth of learning and growing.

For once in my life I can feel gratitude for *everything* - which is saying a lot! LOL