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I feel kinda' down, nothin' too serious. But, I was having a conversation with Connie(We barely speak as it is), and she brought up that old "18 plan." Now, Cati was the first to bring it to me, and I thought about it, but I decided not to since I'd only know two people. I'd rather go cross country to meet Katii, Jace, Ced, Alana, Andrew, Kat, John ( Read more... )

Good. Very good.

Lately, if you've been reading my journal it's obvious that I'm not at that high point like I usually am. Depression has set in, and I can't think of anything to explain it. I spoke to my friend Connie, and she thinks I need stability, in a relationship. I dunno.. I'm kinda leaning towards her thoughts, since when I talk to my female friends I feel ( Read more... )

I cannot seem to figure out why I feel like this. My stomach feels like it up and left my body entirely. My appetite is completely gone. My eyes started tearing up. I can't explain any of it. About a half hour or forty-five minutes ago I just got this feeling. It's not my uncle or anything like that because the tube came out of his throat and he's ( Read more... )

Earlier today, I went to the hospital to see my Uncle Mike. I knew he had surgery and all of that stuff, but I still -thought- I was ready to see him. Stupid me, I was probably tremblin' the entire time. I guess I felt a little better when he squeezed my hand when I was holding his. But for the most part, I was choking back tears and all of that ( Read more... )

I really, really need to punch something right now. Something hard enough to to make me stop thinking about random thoughts, and focus on something else. In this case, pain would be that. I'd punch the wall by the little cousins are sleeping, so bleh. I'm about to run across the street to the gym, and beat the living shit out of the punching bag. ( Read more... )

I feel like, pure and utter shit. And, I don't even know why.

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I got a 162 on an IQ test. Now if that isn't wrong, than there is something EXTREMELY wrong with what America thinks is smart. >.>