For those of you that don't know I am mormon. For a long time I was up in the air about how I felt about the church and God and everything really. This past year has changed me in so many ways ( Read more... )

Did I forget to mention I finally got my Patriarchal Blessing? Well, I did and it was well worth it. Tyler's mom, my mom were there. My boyfriend was also able to be there too. It was such an incredible experience. One I will never forget.

I am trying to change my life. I don't want to become stagnant. I want growth not death. I want to pry the cold dark hands that have been holding me back all these years from my heart. I want to kick the shit out of all the fear that floats around my soul. I feel as though I am running toward green fields and blue skies. And my past can see that I ( Read more... )

I left the two mormon communities I had on my friends list. In the mormon community there is this catholic guy on there that just makes me not want to talk about my own spiritual trials and whatever. I feel like anything I might say would just be used for homework for him. It's hard enough talking about such private things, you know? Who needs tha ( Read more... )

It took the death of my husband for me to start to question my spirituality. I have questioned God and all that I have ever believed in. And I do believe that in some aspects I have become closer to God. Yet in this moment I am feeling more confused than ever. I know there are some things that I feel truth in with out a doubt. But it's more the ( Read more... )

I have been thinking of Tyler a lot lately. I have been missing him. I have wanted to talk to him. I have wanted to hear what he might have to say. I have wanted to see a new smile on his face. A smile I have never seen before. I have wanted to call him up to go longboarding down the canyon on a night when the moon is bright and could light our way ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I have nothing interesting to talk about. I feel like no one wants to hear what I might have to say anyway. My life is nothing extraordinary. .:Sigh:.

I need new summer clothes.

Life is Beautiful...

I am insanely happy these days. And now the fear of another broken heart is creeping in. I don't want that fear to come alive. I've had more than my share of broken hearts. No more broken hearts please. And still I don't want this fear of a broken heart to cause strain or pressure ( Read more... )

Had the sister missionaries over for dinner today. Sister W was incredible. She is from New York City. She has a tiny little apartment in the West Village I believe. She worked with Betsey Johnson! She personally knows Betsey Freaking Johnson. That is so awesome. She wants to finish school. Fashion design. She is sooo awesome. I really enjoyed ( Read more... )