i keep thinking about myself and my short commings. more often tan not these days im feeling more and more inadiquate. i remember i ued to feel alot smarter and more intelligent. but for some reason i feel like my intelligence is escaping me. or compared to most of my friends im the dumb one. its seriously starting to bum me out. ive never been a ( Read more... )

i know alot of people arent into metal but theres a good show comming up and the metal scene in richmond has definately fallen by the wayside ( Read more... )

i hung out with this girl again today. and i wanted to ask her to be my date to a christmas party one of my co-workers is having but i chickened out. weve only hung out twice and i dont really know whats going on, but i wish i had asked her to be my date. im just not that smooth when it comes to stuff like that. i really want to ask her, maybe if ( Read more... )

i met a girl i think i like. we hung out last night at mars bar. usually im not a fan of dancing because i suck, but last night i had alot of fun. usually i feel really awkward, but i felt really comfortable dancing last night. the thing is i cant tell whether shes just really nice to everyone or if shes nice to me because she likes me. i mean SHE ( Read more... )

GODDAMN i make me laugh! and i quote "dont add me to your top 5, in fact delete me from your friends list then go fuck yourself."

i am sweet the end

so i have to move out of my appartment by the 30th. i can either move in with my friend walter or move back in with my mom ( Read more... )

so were being asked to leave our appartment at the end of this month...but were also expected to pay out the lease. fuck that. i dont have the money to pay that and pay first months rent and a security deposit on a NEW appartment. what the hell!?!? im pissed.

i got played...thats the long and short of it. but im not depressed or mad or anything. i think ive just accepted that i have bad luck with women. and thats fine im cool with being lonely and secluded.

so the other day aaron looks at me and says "you know over the past year and a half everytime youre in public you look more and more like you want to vomit ( Read more... )

should i take it as an insult that this girl doesnt want to date me? i mean we do everythign else like were dating but she doesnt want a relationship. im this close to saying fuck it...