Why the hell when life is shit, time seems to never pass?

I'm going alone to watch Eclipse.
That's what happens when you are kind of ashamed for liking something that you can't defend to your friends because even you think it's kind off bad...and really cheesy.

My life is stuck. Really. WTF.
I know I have to do something, things won't get better magically.
I just need the courage...

It's been 2 months since I graduated from college. I need a job...yeah... I'm f*****.
Meanwhile, I've been reading too much fanfic. I've been keeping up with more or less 90 twilight WIP fics!
I need to focus on real life, but it's not really satifying right now...

You know you're a crazy fangirl when you start to imagine a crossover story between Twilight and Vampire Diaries. Really...I'm kind off disappointed in myself. Lol.

You know your life is miserable when the only thing keeping you sane and above feeling depressed all the time is fanfic.

Oh yeah... Twilight now is my guilty pleasure.
I find so MUCH wrong with this book intelectually, but for some reason, I still fucking like it.
I must be crazy.

Rereading Twilight and Midnight Sun.
I have lots of studying to do, but I'm SO not in the mood =P

My head is a mess...
I'm depressed and can't do my work, just want to stay all day long on the Internet and do nothing. 
Maybe I should get a therapist  or something, since I don't seem to be able to talk to my friends.
I just feel like I'm complaining all the time and that I'm whining.

I'm on vacation.
I want some sexy porn to read!
=P