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i was angry yesterday, so angry the day before, and even more two days ago. I realised that it wasn't anyone else but me, i allowed it to happen.
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i am going to church this sunday to give thanks.

i want to be passionate in what i do forever, albeit mundane it may seem at that point of time, i want to still feel the fire at the end of the day.

going cold turkey on facebook day 1 ( Read more... )

dear God,

i don't mean to question your plans, but why do you give me everything but take away that only determinant factor. why do you give me high distinctions in everything but that one thing that makes all these grades matter. i'm sorry i asked.

jasmine xx

i somewhat do not believe in meritocracy anymore.

i have to get over my fear of speaking in front of ten thousand eyes in 2 days.

i like to read about people living their dream, my dream. it makes me excited, and full of anticipation. will i feel what they feel, see what they see. but also, it makes me sad, it terrifies me. what if i don't become, what if i remain the reader and never the writer.

i tried to run after my train of thoughts, 8km/h, 10km/h, 12km/h. i can't keep up, still can't, can i ever, never?