wisp of a girl breathing smoke
red hair spiked and lips to match
sparkling heart earrings, a gift
from an appendage recently removed.
shelf bones, eyes          deceptive.
coffee puddles are sea-deep
you will float pleasantly as long

as i get what i want.
i bet you never guessed
such a small animal
could bite so hard

fake nails and fake smiles, you are buried.
letting go of me will be easy, but it takes practice
just like adding to your anatomy.
ten minutes gaping in the mirror,
paintbrush and steady hand.
suck it in, cover it up.
you're getting so good at that.

a. and i are both hard-headed fighters, never wrong, ready to prove it! protected not by solid evidence, but by never-ending amounts of smoke and steam. so many nights spent pacing back and forth on hotel carpet, chain-smoking cigarettes, listening to the volume of our voices rise step by step like a staircase. i nearly always storm out by sunrise ( Read more... )

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forgiven. undeserving.

chapped lips, 91 lbs,

a mess. wanted, still.

spinning. heart taken.

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