I am bored with life and life and have no sense of purpose. There are things down the road that I would like to do but as of now I feel like I am working, eating, and shitting just so that I can continue to exist. I know there are people who would be very upset if I were to not be around so I just have to keep doing this in hopes that something ( Read more... )

I found out recently the divorce papers are on their way. Looking forward to being done with it.

I am doing better than I was. It goes back and forth. Kind of 3 steps forward, 2 steps back. Sometimes I get really toilet for a couple days.

Something that does stay consistant is the constant feeling that I am going to be incapable of romantic love. ( Read more... )

It's important to try your best with whatever art it is you do, but it's death to contemplate it's merit. I can't get caught up in thinking too long about it. I don't think my music is meant to be listened to. It's more for me than anyone else ( Read more... )

Im at work right now and they are changing out the carpet. It's about as slow here as it was at GNC. Good news for my biggest fan scott is that im gonna be bored enough to update more often. Even if that means typing this all out on my ipad. I'm now remembering how lethargic i start to feel doing work like this. Lot of time sitting down and waiting ( Read more... )

I have a new job. I learned nothing from my mistakes. Everything will always work out for me, so why worry ( Read more... )

Here's where i vent again. I'm 28 and every day of my life now I babysit the clinically fucking stupid. People who can't figure out the simplest functions on a mobile device. This shit isn't hard. I don't consider myself to be a very smart person. I get by. I'm socially shit awkward, and I may just be a sociopath. Just a little bit ( Read more... )

I don't feel like posting, but i haven't in a while, so in old fashioned LJ tradition, I'm copy and pasting a chat log. This is me telling my old friend Danny that I do not want to larp this weekend. Because I don't. Scott's a fan of Jordan being a grumpy dick on lj, so I'm delivering ( Read more... )

comin up from their below ( Read more... )

I really am not all that motivated to post, so I'll do my best ( Read more... )

i'm 25th in the district at work now which puts me a bit above the middle of the pack. Makes me feel baller ( Read more... )