yes, first post in forever...

but...

it's my birthday, so yeah (in 45 min). woo yay for me.

random thought: u know, driving to/from louisville isn't all that bad. i thought it would be worse.

big changes to come. big changes. lookin forward to tomorrow.

so, much news ( Read more... )

gonna go see my best friend risa in cincy on tues/wed! should be exciting. i've missed her tons. pictures probably to follow.

"Trust no one, tell your secrets to nobody and no one will ever betray you."

All this shadiness from the people I call my "friends" leads me to take everything everyone says as a lie. Thank you to the people who betrayed me for destroying my life.

Well, I kinda went against the norm, and allowed this talking w/ jacki to continue. So far things have been alright, although I'm on a very thin fence on whether this should continue. I mean, if she tampers with my trust even just the slightest, I'm turning around, going back to the way we were, and never seeing her face again. She knows this, ( Read more... )

So, I'm starting to talk to jacki once again. i'm not sure of my reasoning, but so far, neither of us have drawn our weapons...i'm so confused as to whether i'm doing the right thing or not. i mean, forgiveness is always a positive thing, but at the same time i'll always be torn apart from what she did to me. i need all the advice i can get, my ( Read more... )

things feel monotonous...it seems like everything i wanna do it just outside my reach at the moment. it'll come, but it's that stupid anticipation that i hate...bleh!

so i think i'm just going to curl up into a ball and die.