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fuck i think i havent written in this for at lesasst 2 months......... well lets see where to start............ me and olivia broke up before my birthday.......... i quit smoking on my birthday................ julie lakna and i started kickin everyday like we use to in high school........ they are the ones who got me to quit........ i got my ( Read more... )

well its officially my birthday... its 2 14 am on july 3 2002...... and my "baby" sanders is here sleeping on the sofa bed next to me.. man i miss her so much i miss the light she put in my life when i would come home and see her innocent little hopefull face ..... i miss the comfort that shes brings... she loves me so much u can tell by the way ( Read more... )

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thats my life... i smoke in the morning b4 work... and at work... then i eat a little after work.. i only eat so i can have food in my tummy so i can smoke again.. then i try and sleep but cant .....until like 5 in the morning then i wake up at 6 to get ready for work.... then i do it all over again ... until a day like this comes along... where ( Read more... )

oh da damn,,,,,,,,,,,, man i havent written in this for hella days.... well ... its about time i did cuz i need to vent.........BLAH......... i have court on thursday... and if everything goes well with my trial and the judge drops my probation... i can get ready to leave for boot camp....... i will be reasigned a job and a departure date asap ( Read more... )

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fuck me..... i wish everything would just be easy.. i wish i could wake up one day and just not need to go smoke.. i wish my body wouldnt crave for it... or the withdrawls wouldnt kick in........ i just fuckin wish i had the fuckin will power (balls) to just say "i dont need crystal meth".... but no im weak sauce....i just keep smoking this shit ( Read more... )

It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth -- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up -- that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had ( Read more... )