So much has happened since I updated last ( Read more... )

I feel so amazing right now. For the first time in months, I am happy. Not just "undepressed", not just blank, actually happyIt's been leading up to this for a while. Last night just confirmed it. For the longest time I acknowledged the bad habits and patterns I was forming and settling into, but just didn't give a fuck. Drug and alcohol abuse has ( Read more... )

You say "what a beautiful face". I say "if you like it so much, just cut it off and keep it for yourself". I'm tired of this look, this face, myself. no matter what i do, I always find myself staring at myself. I don't need that anymore. I try to find the love for myself, but I look in all the wrong mirrors. Nothing is what I want to see. Forced ( Read more... )

Well another month has passed. Yesterday was the pits. I almost died of boredom. It consisted of my watching Brynn all day.with.nothing.to.do. Actually, I cut my hair. I like it ( Read more... )

i didn't even get a chance to say goodbye.

i've had that dog practically my whole life.

my dad just called me. it happened a few days ago.

i fucking loved that dog so much.

oh god, i'm crying too fucking hard for this.

Hmm...today, today, today. I slept until noon. I watched Brynn. I finished reading invisible monsters. I felt bummed about not being able to go see the movie with Morgan. I drank 3 cups of coffee and then a 16 oz. irish cream mocha from tesoro. I went to Blockbuster with Elaina and rented Monster. I watched said movie. I did my hair and felt pretty ( Read more... )

so this week has been laaaaame. i've been at home almost every day babysitting. yesterday i went to value village with elaina and got a new pair of houndstooth-ish pants and a purple shirt with a sea otter on it that i turned into a black flag shirt. ooo ( Read more... )

I'm trying to sell my Doc Marten boots to get a bit of cash before I move. So if anyone is interested, they are a size 8 in mens, 10 in womens, and are 10 eyelet steel toes...good for curbin'. ha. anyway, i doubt anyone will be interested, but e-mail me if indeed you are. I'm willing to compromise on the price, but as I paid $150 for them, I would ( Read more... )

without you i'm nothing
without you i'm nothing
without you i'm nothing
take the plan, spin it sideways
without you i'm nothing at all.

just finished bleaching my hair...i have to redo it in the morning. it's still all dark in spots. dammit. that happened when i bleached my hair from black...i look like a calico cat is sitting on my head ( Read more... )