So...it's been a very long time since I've even thought about being on LiveJournal again. Once it got hacked into by my parents, I decided "fuck that" and moved on to the wonderful world of MySpace ( Read more... )

The weather is teasing me ( Read more... )

I am at this point in my life.... where I am pissed off at the world. I am daring it to push me off the edge just to see if I can fly ( Read more... )

Goodbye Blue Monday - The Feverfew ( Read more... )

I'm in love with this song ( Read more... )

Valentines Day.....What to say about Valentines Day ( Read more... )

Everything gets heavier...weighing on my chest like a ton of bricks, breaking my back, shattering my spirit, my knees give way underneath me and i fall...and have no desire to get back up and fight it again ( Read more... )

I...feel like drowning. In a figurative sense, of course. I feel like drowning in my sleep, in my dreams...letting the quiet blanket of the night engulf me, suffocate me. When I sleep, the worlds troubles are, themselves, like a far - distant - unattainable place/ thing that I need not worry about. When I am awake...everything is there, staring at ( Read more... )

I thought a lot today. Perhaps too much, perhaps not quite enough. But...I think I realized that my problem is that I DO NOT deal with change. Not well, anyways. And.. I had gone for SO long without ANY changes.... that I got used to the normality and the constant rituals and the routine...And then, all at once, God..or whoever...decided to fucking ( Read more... )

I HATE feeling ( Read more... )