so latley i can't beleive how things are going in my life, i've moved out, and i'm starting to do better at theater, the more i work the better i get, but thats not the point the point is things are going good for the most part, i did find out that some people don't really like me anymore, they seem to think i've changed into an arrogant jerk, ( Read more... )

i've been thinking alot lately, about a bunch of different things, about michael and my dad, and my two different aunts that have both caused some problems, each different in many ways, and one much much more damage was caused, i've also been thinking about relationships latley about people in my life, people that were,are, or will be in my life, ( Read more... )

yeah so why do i feel like i have such a small effect on people, that it doesn't even matter, i feel like nothing i do does anyone any good, like its all for nothing

thats all i have been thinking about today, is how as of yesterday michael would have been a senior, he would have been in 12th grade, he would be graduating this year, he and his friends would get their dipolma after one last year in high school and then begin the rest of their lives, kyle, hannah, david, wheelchair, meg, cyndi, and all of you who ( Read more... )

Life can be really hard to deal with at times, for many of us it just starts out with a bad day, for others a bad week, or month, and so on and so forth, we all would like to just have our bad day once a month or year or so, and then just not have to worry about it again for a while, but life doesn't work like that, in fact its much harder to deal ( Read more... )

after looking back at the past few years i've come to a few realizations, i've been getting in the way of myself, ever since the wreck i've continueally been looking for happiness, but the thing is i haven't been looking for happiness, but somethingthe fill the hole that was left by michael and my dad, thats why even in a situation where i should ( Read more... )

in this world of darkness and despair, its very hard to let go of those you love, those you miss, and those you care about. But in this world of darkness and despair there is also hope and light, this light has been given to me from God, he has given me this light to fill the world with hope, it might take a while but i will take this light and ( Read more... )

my thoughts of love ( Read more... )

every time the sun goes down ( Read more... )

last night i was flipping through channels before i went o bed, and the movie click was on, and it happened to be at the part were his dad had already died, and he went back to the last time he saw him, and he kept replaying the part where his dad said,"i love you son", over and over, well i started to tear up but kept watching, well by the part ( Read more... )