Well I tried to kill myself this weekend by taking 17 if not more xanex and I still woke up I hate everything in this world.

Well today was probley the hardest day i have had in awhile. I had to go to my friend Brads wake. He passed away sunday night due to drugs (figures) he over doesed. It was really hard and i never thought I would have to go to a friends funeral. He was only 18 and so much more of a life to live. He was great guy and sweet and had the biggest smile. ( Read more... )

Well I am fixing to leave for school. And I just wanted to say ....well...really i dont have anything to say. Actually I really dont know why I am updating. Bye!

I wonder why? What is the purpose of sticking around when everything is wrong. Everything goes wrong and all I do is cry.

I will probley never know the answer to that question. But o well!

When its just me and him talking I cant help but fall. I cant help but be fascinated by everything he says

always,
me!

Well I would update but it seems somebody else hasnt kept there part of the deal.

Chris if you dont update then I dont update so ha!

Love ya all,
Jess

Well I am really drunk and I am eating a waffel house waffel I really wish they would deliver it would be the best thing known to man.

I wish someone would wake me up,
and take away all the pain I feel.

To everyone out there: Have you ever wondered what it would be like not to be loved, I have.

Forever & a Day ( Read more... )

Well tonight was the best night of my life I made 300.00 dollers at work off of 1 table. That is like 2 paychecksand since chris revked my car that helps me out alot ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish I never met chris he pisses me off. He recks my car and dosnt do shit about it, he dosnt have any balls so when I yell at him he never says anything back, he just drives me up the wall. Sometimes I do wish another guy would come and take me away.

Any guys feel up to it ....? (just let me know)

The only one who could deal with me and stuck around...
Well me and chris will be together a year in December. He has driven me straight up the wall the past months but I love him with all my heart and couldnt see myself being with anyone but him.
P.s. Everyone Please stay Safe and goodluck

Hey! I know its been awhile and I probley wont even write in these thing anymore, but just wanted to say hey