i forgot this existed,

daer livejournal. england is different but i am sitting in my red room and i could be anywhere.

it takes a long time to figure things out and then they're almost figured out and you find a purple shiny ring or something and get distracted.

everything is right again. nice music coming from hands in some way that i dont understand is drifting from a couple feet away. everything is right and warm and perfect and not at all quesy.

there's glue on my floor and glue in my head and glued to my bed is my head.

making decisions is so hard. i can make them for right now, but for the future? it's hard when people don't beleive in you, especially those who are so close to you. good thing that there's always people who know you're capable of everything you always hoped that you'd be able to do.

getting to know someone an extreme amount is way different than just knowing them, and being so comfortable that anything is alright is so satisfying and releiving.

really awful situations are alright, because really great ones balance them out. i feel like im in the middle of one of the best situations ive ever had, but tied up in a messy mistake. but, if everything was good, then i wouldnt really appreciate it, would i? and the good people and times almost always cross out messy/bad mistakes. contrast in ( Read more... )

happy dayshappy nights

yesterday was filled with good things. safe driving and dry feet.

today was filled with good things. warm hands and happy prisoners.

tomorrow will be filled with good things.

i feel like im going to throw up all the time!