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[jenioctavia]

So this is what happened.

I was attempting to reinstall some stuff I needed for school, namely Raptor SmallBASIC and, because the system restore returned it to the crappy 30 day trial, Microsoft Office. As I was doing these things, I suddenly got a message. 'Your system is low on space. Please remove some files in order to install this product.'

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[calisasilvertai]

Being sick is probably why you wanted to sleep all of the time. And being tired is probably a big reason you were missing/not finding things. And being stressed out about those things was probably not helping you get over being sick. It's a viscous cycle. I sure hope this is a sign that things are getting better for you, and I'm sure glad you're starting to feel better!

[jenioctavia]

Probably, yeah. It was just a shitty time all around.

[tacos_of_doom]

I'm still not happy about being ignored by you when I was doing my own complaining the other day. Yeah, maybe it wasn't the best thing to hear, and maybe I was complaining for the sake of it, but it hurts to be ignored by someone you care about when you've had a horrible day. or two.

Glad you found everything, though.

And I ship it.

[jenioctavia]

It's totally shippable.

I get that. One thing in my defense, though? Anything I would have/could have said likely would have come off as bitchy. Not just because I was feeling so worn down and horrid, but because it kind of felt like you were trying to start a pissing contest just because I mentioned I got up at 7. I know now that probably wasn't the case, but right then that's how it felt.

But I am sorry that I ignored you.

[tacos_of_doom]

That wasn't the case at all. I try really hard not to complain, and if I do anyway, then, well, fuck it, I'm sorry. But when I DO complain ... mrgh.

I wasn't happy. I'm a little better now, but I'm still not happy. And I don't like that one of the people I'd HOPE would put up with my bitching ignored me when I was. If I'm totally wrong about that, then fine, I won't expect anything, but fuck it all, it hurt. I still want to scream at you for it, and I know I'm probably not justified to do so in the least.

[jenioctavia]

Well... we can at least agree that we were both having a horrible time. I was trying to keep it in, you were trying to get it out, and in the end it just became a big huge mess. If I'd been honest that I wasn't feeling all that great at least then you would have known, but it was my fault for attempting to 'deal with it' on my own. I think we both have a bad habit of that.

I don't want you to be angry at me and I want to stop being upset about this whole thing. I'm not sure what else I can say about it besides "I'm sorry".

*hugs*

[shayachern]

Hope all is well hon. I know we haven't talked in a while, and while I'm terrible at responding to any posts, I do keep up on them. Maybe you should do a cleansing of your residence? Sounds like you have some brownies or something that are hiding things. In your frazzled mental state, it would be that much easier. But otherwise, it sounds like things are looking up. Love and light to you, and keep your head up about the grades thing. It'll all work out the way it's supposed to. :)