This journal is no more.

laid to rest
gone
over with.
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C-I-A-B-A-DOUBLE T-A...CIABATTA...PEACE OUT!

My Uncle Dickie, his best friend Charlie passed away of leukemia on Thursday. 3 weeks. A month ago he was fine, and now he is gone. Tonight was the viewing and I went with my parents for support of them and my aunt and uncle. Of course, my uncle was taking it pretty hard. But during the prayer by Charlie's father,which is unbelievable to me too ( Read more... )

I hate this feeling ( Read more... )

It's something called tough love that my parents should have tried a long time ago or else this wouldn't keep happening for nine years. I don't feel bad that people call asking if I know him and my reply is no. Am I rude? Am I bitter? Am I confused as to why you would FUCK UP YOUR LIFE for no particular reason. I do not feel sympathetic towards ( Read more... )

All you had to do was apologize...and mean it ( Read more... )

I want to be Stacy from What not to wear ( Read more... )

So all I want to do is see Jonathan but this damn hurricane is changing everything.
And now more things with my brother. I'm just so upset cause i just do not want to be here and that's definitely not helping.
Forecast:I'm expecting the worst

Sometimes I think I just miss having a good time and being carefree with him. We could always have a fun time, whether it was just talking about nothing for an hour and a half on a drive back to Hunts or being TMac playing basketball. We could sit in my room and play text twist for hours or do puzzles until we both wanting to pass out. We could ( Read more... )

Why do you keep talking to me? I told you I couldn't talk to you but it's like you dont listen or you just want to keep making me feel like shit. I understand about your dad and Malias mom and the guy, but seriously stop. I seriously cannot talk to you and you need to stop talking to me. I didnt want to resort to blocking you, but since you cant ( Read more... )

I just can't do it. I'm not strong enough to face you. Every time I talk to you, I faced with all the disappointment you brought. I don't see how we will ever be friends. Why are you always in the back of my mind? Why can't I just talk to you and not feel so empty after? I used to love to talk to you...I could tell you anything. And now, everything ( Read more... )