What I get out of rarely locking entries on LJ/DW
This post inspired by and written for month of meta.
Someone once said to me “You are always who you are.” I had no idea how to be anything other than myself at all times and twenty years later, I’m still always who I am. I also have a basic distrust of the internet and assume that anything I post on the internet will always be there and that I have no control over it after it’s posted, so I pretty much don’t post stuff that I don’t want to be on the internet.
I can’t separate fannish me from quilty me from mommy me. They are all up there together in my brain. I love talking to people, as my friends will testify. When I joined LJ over 8 years ago, I first connected with people I knew in real life and put the most ridiculous things up. I wasn’t a savvy user and I wasn’t a fan. I was just trying to use technology to connect with my friends.
Then I met people through my friends through fandom. I lurked on the edges of fandom for years and met some really fabulous people that way and we connected over things that had nothing to do with fandom.
Now I’m a fan and I love squeeing with other fans. I love obsessing about details from an ep, or the acting, or my favorite actor, or writing stories (more on that in a bit) and sharing that with other fans. Interestingly, to me, I have found that I don’t connect with all fans. We all have our preferences and interests and I feel like the people I’ve connected with have similar preferences and interpretations to me.
The biggest payoff for me with regards to fandom has been when I’ve met someone due to a shared interest in an actor, ep, etc, and we form a friendship that involves so much more than the show.
I have an intense desire to connect. It may even be pathological. I love the interesting conversations that LJ/DW can promote.
I have found another interesting occurence with being a fan and having “friends” on LJ. The people I’ve added on LJ (and here I am talking specifically about LJ because the subscription feature on DW makes this not nearly as strong), are not necessarily people who read my fic and I’m totally fine with that because I love the connections we’ve made. I love hanging out with them and squeeing or sharing their pain/sorrow.
I guess the bottom line for me is that if I draw fence around fannish activity and start to wall off my public entries from my private entries, I feel I would lose those interactions. Merlin, my fandom, only has 13 eps in a series. For 8 months out of the year, we don’t get new eps. These relationships exceed the show and enrich my life. Fandom is exciting, imagination is exciting, but real life is exciting too.
ETA: I totally get why people lock entries. This post is not advocating that everyone post everything publicly.
This entry was originally posted at http://jelazakazone.dreamwidth.org/542032.html. Feel free to comment here or there.
Someone once said to me “You are always who you are.” I had no idea how to be anything other than myself at all times and twenty years later, I’m still always who I am. I also have a basic distrust of the internet and assume that anything I post on the internet will always be there and that I have no control over it after it’s posted, so I pretty much don’t post stuff that I don’t want to be on the internet.
I can’t separate fannish me from quilty me from mommy me. They are all up there together in my brain. I love talking to people, as my friends will testify. When I joined LJ over 8 years ago, I first connected with people I knew in real life and put the most ridiculous things up. I wasn’t a savvy user and I wasn’t a fan. I was just trying to use technology to connect with my friends.
Then I met people through my friends through fandom. I lurked on the edges of fandom for years and met some really fabulous people that way and we connected over things that had nothing to do with fandom.
Now I’m a fan and I love squeeing with other fans. I love obsessing about details from an ep, or the acting, or my favorite actor, or writing stories (more on that in a bit) and sharing that with other fans. Interestingly, to me, I have found that I don’t connect with all fans. We all have our preferences and interests and I feel like the people I’ve connected with have similar preferences and interpretations to me.
The biggest payoff for me with regards to fandom has been when I’ve met someone due to a shared interest in an actor, ep, etc, and we form a friendship that involves so much more than the show.
I have an intense desire to connect. It may even be pathological. I love the interesting conversations that LJ/DW can promote.
I have found another interesting occurence with being a fan and having “friends” on LJ. The people I’ve added on LJ (and here I am talking specifically about LJ because the subscription feature on DW makes this not nearly as strong), are not necessarily people who read my fic and I’m totally fine with that because I love the connections we’ve made. I love hanging out with them and squeeing or sharing their pain/sorrow.
I guess the bottom line for me is that if I draw fence around fannish activity and start to wall off my public entries from my private entries, I feel I would lose those interactions. Merlin, my fandom, only has 13 eps in a series. For 8 months out of the year, we don’t get new eps. These relationships exceed the show and enrich my life. Fandom is exciting, imagination is exciting, but real life is exciting too.
ETA: I totally get why people lock entries. This post is not advocating that everyone post everything publicly.
This entry was originally posted at http://jelazakazone.dreamwidth.org/542032.html. Feel free to comment here or there.