I'm thinking about giving Denny to someone who will really love him. I'm so neurotic that I have to spend time away from him to stop worrying about him. Besides that I don't play with him as much anymore and he's getting nippy thinking the only time I pick him up is to eat.

I worry so much. It makes me worry to think about how much I worry.

These are the things I would like to get out of the summer.

SUMMER VACATION GOALS (almost oxymoronic in nature..)

1) get in shape

2) live by myself

3) make some friends

4) read a great book

5) go on an adventure

6) camping, once

7) walk on the beach

8) study for LSATs/ applications

9) work on proposal

10) learn to relax

I dreamed I was thrown into Cloud 9 to play Edward and couldn't find a script to practice with. Everyone was angry with me for not knowing the lines.. eventually as a group, all on stage would mime my lines to me.

I felt really bad. Sorry, guys.

I've purchased the same type of icecream for the last ten years at least. I can't tell if I'm boring or consistent or consistently boring.

I'm learning to simply coexist.

I'm trying the best I can.

I don't have any more to give.

see?


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First night down and I feel high. Not happy high, just the quiet stifling feeling of my face blanketed. No sound seems to break through. I don't like being so silent, but it's all I can do not to hide the rest of myself along with my voice. I wear my glasses and obsessively look for signs of stability. Even if I conceded to going back to the way it ( Read more... )

of all days to be, today is especially painful.

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