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[jazzjack]

It's been a while and I've got nothing on my mind. Work is starting to make me irritated, my life feels like it's hit a wall, and I finally realized that in NJ, the left turns aren't the only things that are stupid. They put the "No Turn on Red" signs on the sign post on the top of the post (It's technically in view of the signal). I guess being in

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[alistaere]

Eli, you're not a baby. You need to learn to start taking care of yourself. Stop making excuses. If you have a problem, figure out how to take care of it. If you're feeling seriously depressed, go see a doctor.

[jazzjack]

I am taking care of myself, but without a social environment, it's depressing to hear the same thing from my mom all day. Oh, you're still overweight, you're not saving money, you need to go outside more. Yet I have done all of these and still being put down for it. Like when I go out to do something in the area. I'm spending too much money. When I cut my credit card debt to almost nothing, I'm not managing my money. I lost 10 lbs, well, I'm "still too fat". It's a very horrible feeling of accomplishing something and being told I'm doing the wrong thing. The solution to my problem? Go back to Chicago, give up on school, and go out all the time. But Nothing in life is ever that easy or fair though.

[alistaere]

Oh give me a fucking break. Stop making excuses and stop feeling sorry for yourself. Guess what? Don't listen to your mom, or just tell her to shut up. You're 26 years old, you have a mouth. If you don't like working for her, then quit, otherwise, put up or shut up until you can save enough money to move somewhere else or find another job or what the hell ever. I'm sorry Eli, but you complain all the fucking time and then expect the solutions to your problems to just fall in your lap out of the sky because you don't want to work any harder than you have to to get by. You need to be a hell of a lot more dynamic if you want to get what you want and be successful, but for whatever reason you're just too damn afraid to make any sort of personal or attitudinal changes. If you don't change, nothing else will either, so you can spend the rest of your life like this, or you can start taking some freaking self-initiative and help yourself.

[jazzjack]

I do tell her to shut up and stop bothering me. At least twice a day when she's around, and one a day when she's calling me. I lived with this growing up. Want to know why I moved out? To get rid of all the criticism and try to do things on my own. Slowly and slowly, and want to know what? I failed and it's from horrible attitudes like this. "Oh, I feel suicidal." "Well why don't you kill yourself already" It's THE STUPIDEST THING. I wanted some encouragement that what I'm doing is right. Oh, I'm doing the right thing by saving money, going back to college, and exercising. WELL IT SURE AS HELL DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT!

[janusmzeal]

why not aim that money toward something less destructive than eating and drinking? travel, pick up an outdoor activity or martial art, go to the gym. all 3 are good ways to meet people too. find some local special interest groups.

[janusmzeal]

also, you live like right by New York. it's a bigger and busier city than Chicago, for crying out loud. there's gotta be something there for you.

[jazzjack]

More money more money more money. I spend about $10 a day on meals and that's still spending too much. Think about $30 on doing something productive a day and that's just asking for a whole bunch of questions. Also I'm not very good at being social. You should know that.

[janusmzeal]

"It's a good thing I have money, otherwise I'd stay indoors forever. Also, how can I lose weight when the only activities I can do for fun is to eat at restaurants that make yummy food!"

now you're just contradicting yourself. if your only activities consist of eating out, then you're spending way more than $10 a day on food. your post almost made it sound like you had all this money and no idea what to do with it. make up your freakin mind.

if you're so bored and broke and concerned about your weight, stop going out to eat, and stop eating when you're bored. go for a run around the city if you're so bored. it's free, and you'll expend calories instead of gaining them. maybe you'll make a friend or two on the way.

[syksushi]

I can't really say that I've lived away from friends cause I've lived in Chicago all my life. However, I think that even if your friends "leave you behind", you should use that to your advantage. I'm not very social either, so I know what you mean about it being hard to meet people.

But I think you'll get it. You should do the things that are essential for your survival in society. So I think you'll come around man, just stick to it.

[pinkbunnyhop]

Try joining a fitness club... you'll meet people and work out. I think you'll have fun doing it! :)

[jazzjack]

Been there, done that. With TF and when I lived alone. It's a quiet place and people tend to leave each other alone.

[jeffito]

Dude, just buy a fucking DDR machine. I realized (and i'm being 100% honest) the only work out I TRULY enjoy is DDR

lol sad but true

but dude, ur fucking ELI MOTHER FUCKING KIM! and i'm with abby on this man...look dude...

He is able who thinks he is able.

you know who said that? MOTHER FUCKING BUDDHA.

if you think ur a POS, then you WILL BE a pos.

if you think ur Eli mother fucking KIM, the baddest mother fucker in the world, then you will be THE BADDEST MOTHER FUCKER IN THE WORLD!