So I'm back on this thing... haven't been here in so long now.. but its ok i guess... i'm not sure... i guess i should recap on where I've been for the past few months or so.. lets just say back and forth between Tokyo, Kobe, and Houston.. yes.. yes that should do it.. my life? its been ok and hectic at the same time i guess... I've been in the ( Read more... )

OMFG!! WTF!! I've hit the big 20 now!! its all excitin and depressing all at the same time T_T.. so yea Johne threw me a great party today =D he had my favourite kind of liquor.. =D HYPNOTIC!! hehe 4 bottles of it actually.. and 3 bottles of hennessy... and ofcourse i grabbed one bottle of hypno and downed it all by myself.. and growled at neone ( Read more... )

haha so yea.. I forgot i had this thing.. for a while.. since i haven't been updatin this shit since like forever.. -_-" mostly xanga yo! haha but chyea neways.. I GET TO SEE MY BOO TODAY! YEA! been bout a lil over than a month now since 10/15/04! yea! neways.. I have things planned out today.. leave SA around 12.. get there in Houston around 3 or ( Read more... )

i spent all friday, saturday and sunday morning with Alan.. =D we talked alot and watched movies and cuddled together =D i went to church with him on Saturday and everyone we knew were told us that it was bout time we started goin out.. haha from wutSkittles tells me he liked me since his freshman yr but he was too shy to ask me out =P hehe.. its ( Read more... )

=D well this is it.. i get to leave sa tomorrow to go see Alan =D yea! I miss him so much I'm goin crazy!! @_@ hehe its ok though.. =) we decided to spend all friday night together and the next morning.. then Saturday is his party day =) he told me he's afraid that his friend's friends might hit on me.. -_-" hehe y would they? i told him i don't ( Read more... )

I'm goin to miss Alan T_T now i have no one to poke and tickle when I'm bored.. now i wont have neone to cuddle with and hug when i need it.. now i wont have neone to talk to when i want to say something.. T_T ALAN!! I'm goin to miss u hun T_T

He did it again.. he hit me... this time pretty bad.. I couldn't do nethin to stop him.. mom just watched and yelled at me for pissin him off.. thnx mom for the great big help of tryin to stop him from beatin me.. he threw a big ass book at my head.. grabbed my hair and threw me against the wall.. wonder how i can clean off the blood on the wall.. ( Read more... )

I'm at a limbo of feelings right now.. tryin not to fall over to one side in particular.. i got bored so i decided to see if xbf wrote nething in his lj.. and well he hasn't.. hmm wonder wut he's up to.. wait.. wtf? y the hell am i wonderin? tell u the truth i do miss him.. and i can't have him back.. it's ok i guess.. we barely went newhere when i ( Read more... )

well I'm goin to have to have surgery on my ribs... cuz it's been hurtin a whole lot more lately.. i went to get a xray done and found out that it's cracked a lot more than it used to be... =/ sucks to be me.. my parents told me they would visit me if they can.. but i knoe them well enough to knoe that they wont come... who would care bout me ( Read more... )

He said he would go out with me if it only wasn't for the distance.. he said he wouldn't go out with neone else but me... i believe him.. but also I'm afraid.. I'm afraid i will be thrown aside again.. I'm afraid to be rejected again.. no one will love me.. no one will like me.. I will forever be alone..