Um. You don't know me, I think, but I have been stalking you following your journal for quite a while now. I had a bunch of stuff I was going to say in response to your post, a lot of cheerful things about how it's not that bad, but, you know what? I think I'm going to hide from fandom for a few days, because gee, denial sure is fun.
What I meant to say was this: I think that you are an awesome writer, both in your stories and your journal entries. I read your fics (and re-read them) religiously, because they make me smile and cry and your style of prose makes me giddy. And you blog about tea. I hope somebody makes you smile today.
Normally I see these kerfluffles and keep my distance, or try to, and if I say anything it's reassurance to the people who are hurt. Today I didn't really think twice about shooting my mouth off, and after it died down I kind of had to ask myself why I went there. It's out of character for me.
It's an uncomfortable thought that I'm getting used to these things, and that my own reactions are shifting.
At least I spent the rest of the day reveling in reading good fic and writing fic of my own, ENJOYING myself. Tomorrow I will have my first ever CSI fic finished as a result, and so if I measure the worth of the day, I'm definitely going to say that a lot more came out of just letting this business go than it did of involving myself.
The trick, I think, is in keeping the enjoyment factor even in the face of kerfluffles. If there's nothing BUT the kerfluffles, feeling badly -- then it's problematic. The good has to outweigh the bad, you know? That's the only goal I can think of.
I think it's about humans, and the conflicting ways we interact.
This is what it's about! Not necessarily conflicting ways but, yeah. I usually lurk, and don't comment that much. Usually because I don't have that much to say, and I don't think anyone would care if I said it or not. I do however find fandom interesting when it comes to how people communicate and relate to each other, sometimes it's like a study in social psychology. I don't think I know all the codes yet, and how I'm supposed to behave in this strange and to me, not so real world;-)
The rules change, too, dynamics vary from one fandom entity to the next. I really like that variety, but sometimes I start to see repetitive cycles, and I guess -- hmm -- I start to feel some dismay.
Coming from the west wing fandom, where I've spent most time, to this is a big difference! One thing is the people themselves, but also the place we meet. I was used to mailgroups and boards where things are usually heavily moderated. With livejournal it's different, both good and bad I guess.
Thank you for clearing up what a BNF and the likes stand for... seriously, I had trouble for years understanding what GSR means they don´t use the term slow anymore, it´s special. Just so you know. Which kinda makes me a SNF... or a X(xtra)SNF... ooor... a -SNF. Oh well. As long as everybody gets to watch the episodes I´m good with this. Sometimes people take this stuff way to seriously *yawn*.
DArling, this whole thing depresses me, too. And just like you was not long time ago (although I hope things are better on your side now) I'm not living my best times. I come to lj, and to my f-list for escape, for love, for some fun, not to see people going on each other's throats. That's depressing and I have enough depression on my own. I started reading fiction on lj because it was easier to find good quality material than on ff.net but I guess I'll end back on ff.net full time if things continue this way.
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Um. You don't know me, I think, but I have been stalking you following your journal for quite a while now. I had a bunch of stuff I was going to say in response to your post, a lot of cheerful things about how it's not that bad, but, you know what? I think I'm going to hide from fandom for a few days, because gee, denial sure is fun.
What I meant to say was this: I think that you are an awesome writer, both in your stories and your journal entries. I read your fics (and re-read them) religiously, because they make me smile and cry and your style of prose makes me giddy. And you blog about tea. I hope somebody makes you smile today.
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Tea! Fixing to post about a new one, yes. Heee!
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It's an uncomfortable thought that I'm getting used to these things, and that my own reactions are shifting.
At least I spent the rest of the day reveling in reading good fic and writing fic of my own, ENJOYING myself. Tomorrow I will have my first ever CSI fic finished as a result, and so if I measure the worth of the day, I'm definitely going to say that a lot more came out of just letting this business go than it did of involving myself.
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This is what it's about! Not necessarily conflicting ways but, yeah. I usually lurk, and don't comment that much. Usually because I don't have that much to say, and I don't think anyone would care if I said it or not. I do however find fandom interesting when it comes to how people communicate and relate to each other, sometimes it's like a study in social psychology. I don't think I know all the codes yet, and how I'm supposed to behave in this strange and to me, not so real world;-)
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Which kinda makes me a SNF... or a X(xtra)SNF... ooor... a -SNF. Oh well. As long as everybody gets to watch the episodes I´m good with this. Sometimes people take this stuff way to seriously *yawn*.
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I come to lj, and to my f-list for escape, for love, for some fun, not to see people going on each other's throats.
That's depressing and I have enough depression on my own.
I started reading fiction on lj because it was easier to find good quality material than on ff.net but I guess I'll end back on ff.net full time if things continue this way.
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