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i need some one to be able to go and hang out with, and be close with, some one to hold, and some one to belong to, some one that i can just let it out with, and never worry, about if im putting on a good enough show for, some one who can see my pain, and heal it. some one who can not see it but heal it just by being with me. some one... just fuckn ( Read more... )

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yeah. it can hurt pretty bad, but if i cant stand tall and take it, who would i be? over all it is a shock. i thought it was going to be a joke. it wasnt. im out, and probably for good. i still wouldnt trade it for anything. i wish there was something to fix, i dont feel right just giving up. it hurts more than it should, you know? not doing ( Read more... )

chem. gay. art(esp. rodeo art) gay. track gay. health gay. but being able to hang with lauren between classes, and before school is 10x worthy compensation of the gayness of those classes. stuco "overnighter" at the school friday, after i work, heck! i hope i can go. i dont see why i shouldnt be able to go. and i can feel the purchase of an amp is ( Read more... )

it has been so long since i had seen lauren. and it was good to see her today. i was happy. :) school is... is, the same. cept.. nope its the same. and i will be going to buy an amp soon. i have lots of money for one... i need one. so i can play in a band!!!!! people dont want me to friggin play cause of my puny 38 watt fender frontman something ( Read more... )

yes, church was fun, fireworks, hide and go seek. subway. too bad brian missed out, he was sick. lauren missed out, or i guess we missed out cause she wasnt here. lol. i just moved the computer back into the living room at midnight today... UGH:( oh well. ive missed lauren alot. just talking to her online or on the phone is crazy... how does ( Read more... )

i have so much art to be working on for the cape, (caperenewal... http://www.purevolume.com/caperenewalRead more... )

well i have another blog thing, *((quick add it to favorites, http://the-arrow.tripod.com/poetry/))
and it has like poetry, lyrics, and other works of my own. missing lauren is the best thing i do right now.
:) movies were great. counting down the days...<3