i have been wicked shitty th past two days. i saw rinnie yesterday and that made me happy for a while. it was awesome to see her ans hang out with her because i havent seen her for thelongest time. when icame home last night my mom had bought pirates of the caribean for me. oh so amazing. i love my mom. haha. today was horrible. i felt like shit ( Read more... )

H A V E Y O U E V E R ( Read more... )

i hate everything lately.i hate feeling alone and i always feel it, even when im around my closest friends i still feel shitty. i hate people in general. im such an ass to every one for no reason at all. i hate school and all the fucking stress that goes along with it. i hate seeing people smile when im not smiling. im a shitty person.
xoxox

mike and i woke up at 7 to go to best buy to get the deals. haha it was a fucking mad house. we found a close parling spot at the mall so that was better than walking 10 miles to the mall. there was like a million people in the store running around like fuckin madmen. it was nuts. mike got a srround sound system he wanted for like 60 bux, plus he ( Read more... )

i need this weekend coming up. i need the time off from school shit. i am so looking forward to spending time with my friends. i havent really seen nayone in like a month. thanksgiving is usually alrgiht, but i dont like some of my family, and im sure they dont like me so uaually skip out early. i hope i can skip school tommorow. if i do i can ( Read more... )

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First Kiss I Enjoyed: dont remember ( Read more... )

i was supposed to go see saves the day tonight, but hey shit never ever works out the way it is supposed to do. i couldnt really get any one to drive and i dont have mirrors on my car so i dont want to be driving all around with out them. im kinda pissed. at least i get and extra hour and a half from work. i need to fucking money to fix my mirrors ( Read more... )

cradle of filth last night was amazing. they played so fucking good. they where a bit wierd but, oh well. they had awesome stage presence. i hated like every kid there. there where so many stupid kids who thought they where vampires. haha. anyways, got out of the show and got to my car and someone broke the mirrors. i laughed for an hour and then ( Read more... )

why cant i be like every one else. just live life and be happy. smile and have fun. i wish i could be like the so many smiling faces that pass me on the street. but that life just seems not to be for me. no matter what i do i always feel the same. i catch my self smiling and then it unstantly goes away. its like i have a whole in my heart that all ( Read more... )