A Day Of Deep Complicated Conversations ... And Laundry

[jade_kadir]

Today's Writing EffortI got a lot done around the house today. I got a load of dishes done and several loads of laundry. I swept and mopped the floors and got the fire going really well and kept it going all day long and only set off the smoke alarms twice. I think this batch of wood is just smokier than the last one. I don't know why. I got

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[man_of_snows]

It seems like you are putting yourself and your desires last here among the three of you. Why is that?

[dillen_dagen]

I would second this comment

[jade_kadir]

It's not that I don't think I deserve it, I just think the Universe makes me fight for every scrap of goodness and happiness in my life and sometimes, even then, I don't get it.

"You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need."

And no, Jenny and I are on the same level. Her anxiety, and James staying with het at night, have nothing to do with the Valentine's Day delay. He's upset that we have to keep delaying it too, but there's not much to be done when there is work to do and appointments to keep and sick kids. That's just life. And it makes the both of us unhappy, but we keep trying. And he does tell me, and show me, all the time how much he loves and values me. It's just a little speed bump combined with my own native pessimism that's been getting me down. :)

[jade_kadir]

That's just the way I've always been. Everyone else comes first.