So I’m looking for a new job.

I’m usually averaging 1-2 interviews per week; most of them phone interviews. Sending out quite a few resumes.

So far from talking to recruiters, CHS is underpaying me by around $20k. They say that I should be asking around $80k for my skills and experience. To be honest, that tracks with CHS because they really don’t ( Read more... )

Thoughts about politics currently:

My thoughts go to the fact that politically I feel ambivalent. I want to explore my darker thoughts on it.

From my view, I have one party that wants to kill me. A party that hates me so much that any law that could pass that would abridge my rights, they’re for. Breaking any system in the process, leaving ( Read more... )

I gave you everything.

I fought endlessly to be your friend

Endlessly to be your advocate

Found you valuable when everyone got tired of you

Broke myself in countless ways to appease you

...And you told me I never was good enough

I’ve known you since 1999

And how much you’ve taught me to be a better person

You were my friend that picked up the ( Read more... )

So in October a bad roommate left my life. She was the one I was celebrating her leaving.

I’m also not sure if I brought this up but there were a few times this roommate sexually coerced me by forcing kisses and a make out session or two. I just kinda laid there because it was better then what had happened before: Them spending three days with ( Read more... )

New year, who dis?

Well it certainly has been an interesting one. Let’s do a belated end-of-year update.

Please note that this journal is audience-restricted. Some of the things brought up involve people that I’d rather them not have this data. Please respect that I am allowing you to read this and trust that you will not tell the people involved.

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One thing that I've been thinking about deals with medical gatekeeping and trans people. I think it needs to be reworked.

As it stands, the medical consensus is that most medical procedures for trans people require a note from a therapist before you can get it. If you get a vaginoplasty, some variants of it requires two notes from a therapist. The ( Read more... )

So a friend of mine got let go yesterday. Someone decided on Wednesday to let her go and *poof* her job was gone. Get your affairs in order because at five PM you will no longer have access.

Years of employment just gone.

They decided to let her go yesterday because if they kept her on for one more day they’d have to pay more. Another month of ( Read more... )

As a child I always felt things so intensely

The slightest waver of a lip caused me agonizing pain of how I didn’t please my parents perfectly

Telling of an unspoken, unknown tale of how I failed

I was lost in a world that I could not comprehend

A place that others seemed to understand

But was a complete foreign language to me

So I used all my ( Read more... )

Okay so this blog isn’t going to be worded perfectly. I’m going to try to do it as delicately as possible, but it will be impossible to not step on some toes. If it does, then I am sorry that this hurts you, I am hoping that this might be a growing point.

Going on:

There is a difference between sharing one’s problems and inflicting one’s problems ( Read more... )

I’ve been wanting to write this for some time, but I haven’t had the time to be able to. Please skip if discussing how sex and intimacy has changed for me since I started transitioning. Without further ado, the sex blog!

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So, one of the things I read about is transitioning reboots and changes you sexually. I’d definitely say that ( Read more... )