-I haven't been in a relationship, I mean a real one, in FOUR YEARS.
-I haven't met a girl that I've actually been interested in, since I met Kristana. Which was something like 8 months ago.

Hypothesis: I should fucking give up.

Conclusion(edit): It doesn't matter, none of this matters!

of being sick and fucking tired.

internalize...

rationalize..

reduce.

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-throw another mug of water in the microwave for another cup of tea
-wait a few hours before trying to eat
-take a shower and brush your teeth, maybe it'll make you feel better
-recall the bad choices of the night before just to make sure you didn't black out
-try to get your head to stop spinning

self loathing.. and go!

1. not easy in body or mind; uncomfortable; restless; disturbed; perturbed.
2. not easy in manner; constrained; awkward.
3. not conducive to ease; causing bodily discomfort.

sounds about like how I am right now...

is what im using to make myself get over this girl. doing everything in my power to get her out of my mind. tell myself she's not worth it. tell myself i'll meet someone new. tell myself im not a worthless pile of shit. i still think shes amazing but if shes willing to stop seeing me then im not willing to tear myself up any more than i already

to date a girl who's never got any time for you.

I should probably meet a new girl.

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