writing rambling

[isiscolo]

The story I have been working on is in beta. I am still kind of ridiculously in love with it, because the flaws haven't yet been pointed out to me and it is as perfect as a new boyfriend or a shiny toy. I am always boggled when people claim to hate their own just-posted stories. I always think the most recent thing I have written is the best

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[malnpudl]

NO ISIS? bitchinparty with NO ISIS? SADNESS AND WOE. :-(

Also: I had to default on remixthedrabble, which was sort of heartbreaking since I love that challenge. But I had set aside Tuesday and Wednesday to do nothing but write... and then I came down wretchedly sick and couldn't even think, much less write. *sadness redux*

[isiscolo]

SADNESS AND WOE!!!!

I shall miss you! And everybody else. But I'm already spending OMGSOMUCH as flights from my podunk airport cost the earth, and even paying for the room nearly a freakin' YEAR in advance and splitting it with revbiscuit is ridiculously expensive. And I can't see flying to one coast, flying home, then four days later flying to the other coast.

Waah. Also waah on you bailing on RTD, although I totally get why you had to.

[sophinisba]

Think of it as having given someone else the opportunity to do a pinch hit, which they were probably really excited about (considering they responded within minutes of me sending out the call). I am really sorry you were sick though. :(

[isiscolo]

I was surprised at how few pinch hits there were!

[amanuensis1]

I always think the most recent thing I have written is the best thing in the universe, at least for a while.

It's SO TRUE. And then you go back to it three months later and all you can see is the flaws.

[isiscolo]

And then you cycle back and forth between hating it and loving it, and then eventually you forget about it until someone either gives you feedback or asks to translate it, and then you reread it, and you either wince at all the flaws or go, "hey, this doesn't suck too badly!"

[isiscolo]

You know, sometimes I wonder whether people even care about some of the obscure fandoms I occasionally rec in - I am DELIGHTED you commented (and ASTONISHED that you have an icon).

[sophinisba]

Thank you for the Brideshead Revisited rec! Yay!

[isiscolo]

As I said to mtranc3, YAY that you are interested in an obscure rec! It always makes me feel happy for having directed people to a story that wouldn't have seen it otherwise.

[china_shop]

I've found it hard to read Ray/Ray lately, because one Ray is always Ray and the other is Kowalski or Vecchio, which irritates and confuses me.

I was just thinking about this. Is it partly the disconnect between how they think of themselves and how their partner refers to them? Because I can see that with Fraser POV fic where he thinks of himself as Benton or Ben but everyone else calls him Fraser, it would only emphasise his isolation, maybe? But when you're reading cute R/R, you don't want that distance.

Or is it more because Ray can refer to either of them, so it becomes weirdly generic and slippy? Or is it something else entirely. *ponders*

I wonder if it would work for Kowalski to think of himself by his surname -- he does sometimes in F/K fic, actually (eg. "Jeez, Kowalski, get with the program and just do something." /example made up due to laziness).

[isiscolo]

Hee, perfect icon

[china_shop]

Part of it is that I don't find "Fraser" isolating or distancing in F/K, because that's what Ray calls him in canon.

Yeah, no, I didn't mean that surnames were automatically distancing, but that perhaps the discrepancy between how the POV character thinks of themself and how they're addressed might create a disconnect. You know? So if I think of myself as "china" and my partner only called me "Ms. Shop", there's a question there about whether we each view me differently. Or maybe not. I mean, Fraser would never think of himself as "Benny", and I certainly don't see Vecchio calling him that as distancing (though I used to).

I think to myself, Vecchio. What the hell did you just do?

*nodnod* And that matches up with my Kowalski example. That we can (often?) have them addressing themselves by surname, even if the POV name doesn't match that.

I mean, the whole POV/name thing is artificial anyway, because I don't think of myself as "china" or "[my real name]" in my internal train of thought; I think of myself as "I". You know? So any

[isiscolo]

They don't work slightly less for me, but they still irritate me. I think that the heart of the problem is TWO GUYS NAMED RAY. Stupid canon.