[Trans] Kame camera - Vol.34 Now
Merry Christmas to everyone! ^__^ Here your end of the year gift from me~ (and Kame, okay~ XD)
What he says here is slightly melancholic but really deep. Your food for thought for the last days of the year :)
Highlights:
-"Right now I'm extremely lonely (laughs)" (cit.)
-Talking about how he is taking both praises and failures in his work right now.
-And yes, talking about becoming four.
Thanks to scorch66 for the English betaread :)
KAME CAMERA
What's the scenery of the bottom of the heart that Kamenashi Kazuya's lens reflects?
Vol. 34 今 Now
「The hardships of the present are for the sake of the time that will come several years from now. I think the future will change depending on me」
This is the massage chair that I have at home and is recently my favorite object. I bought it because I wanted to be refreshed. There are days that, due to the drama filming, I'm not at home a lot, but once I sit here I recharge completely at once!
Right now I'm extremely lonely (laughs). Because of my profession, I'm aware of being in solitude from the start. The bigger the joy of standing on a gorgeous stage and receiving the encouraging shouts of a multitude of people, the bigger the gap with the moments when I'm alone; I think that this crevice inflates the sense of solitude. It's not something that has started just now and I think this aspect too makes this work interesting. But you know, the loneliness I'm experiencing now is slightly different. It's a different kind of loneliness.
One of the causes behind it is the drama, “Tokyo Bandwagon”. The filming is extremely fullfilling. It tells the story of a big family living in the Tokyo shitamachi and the cast became as close as a real family. Even when we're waiting we don't go back to the dressing room but we get into deep conversations together. Those times are very fun and I can loosen up, so as soon as I come back home and I'm alone, I feel lonely, a status similar to feeling homesick (laughs). It's an unbelievable fact considering how I've been until now. No matter how much a filming place was fun, I wanted to go back home and have my time to return to myself; despite [me being like] this, recently every time I come home I feel lonely. It's weird to put it like this, but maybe it's because my “real self” and my “work self” are reversing.
Right now, I guess because of the fact that Ao, the characterI'm playing, is a life-sized young boy, on the filming place I'm able to become the “real Kamenashi” who consciously takes it easy, and [on the contrary] it's the me who sits in his slightly fashionable house drinking wine who is closer to the show-off “KAT-TUN's Kamenashi” (laughs). In the last years the distance between the public and private Kamenashi Kazuya has shrinked limitlessly. During the debut period, “KAT-TUN's Kamenashi” was the production of society's image. It was an existence that even thereal me was longing for, and from time to time it was also a troublesome existence that was binding me. But I took part in baseball activities with “Going!”, I challenged the movie “Ore Ore”. Many different experiences have past and, without realizing, the border line was vanishing. I think that not only mine, but also the world's eyes have changed. I feel that this drama is digging up not only my real self, but even the me who was an elementary school boy and grew up in the shitamachi (laughs).
When I became able to be a stable self who doesn't change no matter where I am, even impatience strangely vanished. I'm not influenced by the good or bad results, may they be the movie I star in being highly appreciated overseas or the drama's bad ratings. Of course, on that moment I'm deeply happy or sad as a concerned party. But on the other hand, I'm looking at them in an extremely objective way. May it be praise or criticism, it's fine if the audience who's watching can enjoy it. After that, the rest is up to me.
There isn't a single thing about me I'm pessimistic about
The withdrawal of a member was very regrettable. But we earnestly faced each other all together without giving up until the end. For this reason, even though there is regret, I can think we must look forward in any case. I'm sure that for the world, the present me or KAT-TUN probably look like we’re in difficulty but the condition inside of us isn't bad. From now on, realistically there is a wall we have to go beyond indeed, but I'm thinking ofit positively from my heart: that any hardship is “the present necessary for the future several years from now”.
Now, as an individual I think it's a moment of ecdysis [ie. molting, shedding the old]. It's me who daily, despite saying that I feel lonely, decreases the time I meet my friends and chooses to stay alone. I want to properly face myself. My spirit is steadily facing and getting closer to the inside, and even though I'm not physically moving, I feel like my hand will reach the deepest depth of my heart. For me who is a person who gets lonely easily, I can say that this period is the first time in my life I'm being so alone with myself. Maybe in order to get closer to “my ideal self” even more, this is an orbit correction necessary for me to walk to the place I want to reach one day. I'm actually very excited to see what will start from now.
Right now I'm extremely lonely, but I'm personally choosing to be “alone”. Because I want to keep hold of the depth of my own heart.
Kame’s fixed point of observation
Other than drama filming, his schedule is extremely busy till the end of the year with the mini album recordings, the sports casting job, and the preparations for the coutdown live; nonetheless, Kamenashi-kun has a nice and serene expression. “Indeed, now both my physical and mental state are in a good mode, and even my body weight has naturally decreased. I wonder why it did, since I'm in lack of sleep? (laughs) When I come back home I cook my own food and eat, and think alone about my future. Maybe it's good that I can take it easy, even if for a short time”.
By Maquia
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As last note, "shitamachi" is the East part of Tokyo, the more middle-low class and traditional residential zone of it. The atmosphere is really what you see in Tokyo Bandwagod drama so I thought it wasn't needed a note about it, but you can read wiki about it if interested.
I think some of his statements are open to different readings - especially the second half of the interview - so I won't comment but I'm curious to see your opinions :)
What he says here is slightly melancholic but really deep. Your food for thought for the last days of the year :)
Highlights:
-"Right now I'm extremely lonely (laughs)" (cit.)
-Talking about how he is taking both praises and failures in his work right now.
-And yes, talking about becoming four.
Thanks to scorch66 for the English betaread :)
KAME CAMERA
What's the scenery of the bottom of the heart that Kamenashi Kazuya's lens reflects?
Vol. 34 今 Now
「The hardships of the present are for the sake of the time that will come several years from now. I think the future will change depending on me」
This is the massage chair that I have at home and is recently my favorite object. I bought it because I wanted to be refreshed. There are days that, due to the drama filming, I'm not at home a lot, but once I sit here I recharge completely at once!
Right now I'm extremely lonely (laughs). Because of my profession, I'm aware of being in solitude from the start. The bigger the joy of standing on a gorgeous stage and receiving the encouraging shouts of a multitude of people, the bigger the gap with the moments when I'm alone; I think that this crevice inflates the sense of solitude. It's not something that has started just now and I think this aspect too makes this work interesting. But you know, the loneliness I'm experiencing now is slightly different. It's a different kind of loneliness.
One of the causes behind it is the drama, “Tokyo Bandwagon”. The filming is extremely fullfilling. It tells the story of a big family living in the Tokyo shitamachi and the cast became as close as a real family. Even when we're waiting we don't go back to the dressing room but we get into deep conversations together. Those times are very fun and I can loosen up, so as soon as I come back home and I'm alone, I feel lonely, a status similar to feeling homesick (laughs). It's an unbelievable fact considering how I've been until now. No matter how much a filming place was fun, I wanted to go back home and have my time to return to myself; despite [me being like] this, recently every time I come home I feel lonely. It's weird to put it like this, but maybe it's because my “real self” and my “work self” are reversing.
Right now, I guess because of the fact that Ao, the characterI'm playing, is a life-sized young boy, on the filming place I'm able to become the “real Kamenashi” who consciously takes it easy, and [on the contrary] it's the me who sits in his slightly fashionable house drinking wine who is closer to the show-off “KAT-TUN's Kamenashi” (laughs). In the last years the distance between the public and private Kamenashi Kazuya has shrinked limitlessly. During the debut period, “KAT-TUN's Kamenashi” was the production of society's image. It was an existence that even thereal me was longing for, and from time to time it was also a troublesome existence that was binding me. But I took part in baseball activities with “Going!”, I challenged the movie “Ore Ore”. Many different experiences have past and, without realizing, the border line was vanishing. I think that not only mine, but also the world's eyes have changed. I feel that this drama is digging up not only my real self, but even the me who was an elementary school boy and grew up in the shitamachi (laughs).
When I became able to be a stable self who doesn't change no matter where I am, even impatience strangely vanished. I'm not influenced by the good or bad results, may they be the movie I star in being highly appreciated overseas or the drama's bad ratings. Of course, on that moment I'm deeply happy or sad as a concerned party. But on the other hand, I'm looking at them in an extremely objective way. May it be praise or criticism, it's fine if the audience who's watching can enjoy it. After that, the rest is up to me.
There isn't a single thing about me I'm pessimistic about
The withdrawal of a member was very regrettable. But we earnestly faced each other all together without giving up until the end. For this reason, even though there is regret, I can think we must look forward in any case. I'm sure that for the world, the present me or KAT-TUN probably look like we’re in difficulty but the condition inside of us isn't bad. From now on, realistically there is a wall we have to go beyond indeed, but I'm thinking ofit positively from my heart: that any hardship is “the present necessary for the future several years from now”.
Now, as an individual I think it's a moment of ecdysis [ie. molting, shedding the old]. It's me who daily, despite saying that I feel lonely, decreases the time I meet my friends and chooses to stay alone. I want to properly face myself. My spirit is steadily facing and getting closer to the inside, and even though I'm not physically moving, I feel like my hand will reach the deepest depth of my heart. For me who is a person who gets lonely easily, I can say that this period is the first time in my life I'm being so alone with myself. Maybe in order to get closer to “my ideal self” even more, this is an orbit correction necessary for me to walk to the place I want to reach one day. I'm actually very excited to see what will start from now.
Right now I'm extremely lonely, but I'm personally choosing to be “alone”. Because I want to keep hold of the depth of my own heart.
Kame’s fixed point of observation
Other than drama filming, his schedule is extremely busy till the end of the year with the mini album recordings, the sports casting job, and the preparations for the coutdown live; nonetheless, Kamenashi-kun has a nice and serene expression. “Indeed, now both my physical and mental state are in a good mode, and even my body weight has naturally decreased. I wonder why it did, since I'm in lack of sleep? (laughs) When I come back home I cook my own food and eat, and think alone about my future. Maybe it's good that I can take it easy, even if for a short time”.
By Maquia
--------------------------------
As last note, "shitamachi" is the East part of Tokyo, the more middle-low class and traditional residential zone of it. The atmosphere is really what you see in Tokyo Bandwagod drama so I thought it wasn't needed a note about it, but you can read wiki about it if interested.
I think some of his statements are open to different readings - especially the second half of the interview - so I won't comment but I'm curious to see your opinions :)