i keep dreaming about babies.

last night i dreamt that there was a girl in the ocean, and she had a baby in a car seat tied to her, and she was swimming and he was floating. and she crashed into a deck, and the baby got stuck and she got swept away.

then the baby turned into a grey kitten that looked a lot like my old cat yoda.

hrm.

for some reason i can't stop thinking about all the letters at the post office that will never reach their destination.

sometimes i wonder why life works the way it does ( Read more... )

i'm going to get things done this week.
and i'm going to make things better.

also, i told my friend my uterus hurt and she described the pain before i did, and told me what it was. so i guess it's normal.

i can't wait for the baby books to come. thank you tasha.

does any body have any kind of pregnancy tea suggestions? or any suggestions at all?

my uterus kind of hurts.

sometimes i just want to die.

( these tears stain my cheeks )

i'm sitting here on the floor of our bedroom, a mcdonalds salad box under my keyboard and a pile of three and a half lods of laundry sitting next to me ( Read more... )

i've been so weepy this week. everything is making me cry.

yesterday an ept commercial made me cry.
as did the greeting cards at walmart when i was trying to find the right one to send to my dad to announce my pregnancy.
also, any birth story i've read in the last 3 or 4 days has made me cry.
and my clothes. yeah. they're making me cry too.sigh

i was looking at babycenter earlier and i did some math and i could be anywhere between nine and a half and eleven and a half weeks pregnant ( Read more... )

i spent most of yesterday looking up baby things and what kind of things we would need.

i got to looking at breast pumps when i realized i don't know what the hell i'm doing.

i need help. i need someone to talk to. sigh.