this may mean nothing to you but....

i miss you, i love you, i think of you everyday, and i'm worrying about you especially right now. i am praying for you and deeply hope you are ok.

i wish i could say things could change. they honestly should. i'm still struggling with it.

this always reminds me of you. i wish desperately to fully claim these words ( Read more... )

it's not like me to address the viewers of this lj, but i just want u to know that i will be making this friends only soon, i'm sorry if there are any who are not lj users that read this. u'll just have to resort to finding out about my life the old fashioned way: a-s-k-i-n-g.

also, i could really use a hug right now.

so basically i'm really hurting inside. i don't know if it's going cold turkey on zoloft,lack of sleep, probs with school, probs with friends and family, probs with social life, probs with love life, or simply all of the above. all i know is that during the day, i fight unreasonable spells of regression and am constantly irritable, and the fact ( Read more... )

omgomgomgomgomg

i just want this to be resolved.

but i'm afraid of the resolution

and yet...if it get's resolved in the nonpositive way...i still will want him there to lean on.

that's not fair, i know.

y does being a teenager have to be so hard?

y does life have to be so hard?

would the world just be better without love?

You Are the Helper

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You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.

You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.

Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.

You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.

What number are you?
yup that's me ( Read more... )

i'm so happy, and maybe even...satisfied. well, no, not satisfied, u never should be satisfied. but i've never felt like this before. thank you dillon ( Read more... )

ugh so dillon is gone til sunday...sadness. i will try to get on with life without him. i hope he has a great time tho. i can't wait til he gets back tho, and i wish we could go out the minute he gets back, but, poor baby, he won't get back til like 2 in the morning, he's gonna be sooo tired...i hope we get to go out more over the break ( Read more... )

wow so many things to say ( Read more... )

i feel like the biggest criminal ever. i know i'm not, that this really isn't in comparison to robbery, vandalism, murder, etc but i've been raised with family and friends who highly look down upon people like me. i used to be the one turning the criminals in myself. now look at me. i hate what i've become. i just want to curl up and die, i'm so ( Read more... )

ok well don't have time to say much, just got back from fencing, oh so fun, i desperately wish i could continue after the six weeks are up ( Read more... )