My mom took me out to lunch yesterday. And told me that my cat died before the meal was brought out ( Read more... )

He amazes me and his kiss still lingers. I am flying to a state I have never been to meet his family- all his family- and this scares the shit out of me (when I have moved halfway across the world before). But...it also feels surprisingly natural. I am so excited ( Read more... )

I want romance, I am not afraid to admit it. Is that really such an outlandish request? I want waiters to be prompt and kind, not all these bitter people who hate their job. I want to be judged on my character, not only my mistakes. I like listening to sappy, inspirational music. I am so excited about my tattoo, when I get around to getting it ( Read more... )

Just how men need to buy big trucks to overcompensate for something, I feel that sometimes I laugh too much. If I weren't laughing, then well - Happy 420.

What is the cure for heartbreak? I can't help it, I just love him. Moving on is not an easy process when someone else owns your heart.

I feel like I don't have a place in the universe right now. I want this hopelessness to go away soon. The sting of regret is much more viscious than I could have imagined it to be. I just want to be remembered as a good person, and it seems very difficult to make that a clear point through all my pointless, miserable mistakes.

I don't know what to do, why does he make it so hard to be with him? I just want to be happy and wanted. Love sucks.

Do you ever feel like you have been waiting your whole life to begin your life?
I'm still waiting.

Relationships are tough, like really, really tough. At least this one seems to be. You have to work at it every day and have communication and all that crap, it's so much work bleh.
On an unrelated note (maybe?) I miss Italy so much right now.
Time to start getting my shit together again.

Ok, I am back from Europe! Hurray. I've been back in Cali for a week now, arrived last Wednesday which as you can imagine was super weird after being gone for 10 weeks. That night I went to Josh's and he bought me roses which was super sweet and he looked adorable and I was all nervous, but everything felt exactly the same between us except that ( Read more... )