Gone, but not forgotten

[inner_geek_girl]

Not lonely, but alone

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[stellaspike]

hmm
Well, I am in therapy, I pretty much only go to school and hardly have time to socialize.I have no contact with my parents because they are the source of much toxic behavior in my life.I have an eating disorder that I am working through slowly.I am taking way better care of myself than I have ever.I say no to alot ALOT more.I am mostly alone I don't know who my friends are, but I have some pretty good guesses.
I don't hate myself as much as I used to.
but definitely qualifies as a transformation.
I think.

Thanks for posting

[inner_geek_girl]

so much of what you wrote is about choice. You are choosing a better life for yourself (one that you deserve and have fought hard to achieve). Do you think it stems from the "not hating yourself as much as you used to?" Do you feel like the therapy is reinforcing things you already knew? For me, there was a lot of new stuff that came out in therapy. Notions I had about myself that I now see were TOTALLY wrong.

Re: Thanks for posting

[stellaspike]

I feel like therapy does have something to do with it, coupled with a strong interest in being happy or at least not fucking miserable.
Alot of what has come up was far more revealing to me than I expected, and there was alot of things I didn't realize about my self and my circumstances.Some good some painful but I definetly feel like I have a more accurate view of what my life is made of.

I don't hate myself as much because I started making choices based on the revelations in therapy, so yes?

There are somethings I knew but couldn't face- until therapy, there are some things that are brand spanking new to think about and feel.

But I will say that I feel better than I have in a long time.I am working through painful stuff but its not crippling me at the moment.
which it was before hand.