Gone, but not forgotten
Not lonely, but alone.
In many ways, life is easier, less messy.
I know I am missing out, but I don’t seem to be able to be any other way right now.
I think that after the last 18 months, I needed to refocus.
And now?
I'm real. I'm difficult and messy, but I'm honest with my feelings.
All the fake in and around my life has drifted away.
I still have an abundance of love to give and receive, but I have time.
Yesterday a dear friend, who has been going through a similar transformation, said to me “I’m tired of waiting for my life to begin.” I know exactly how she feels. Maybe not in the same context… perhaps my declaration would sound something like, “I’m tired of waiting to live my life the way I want to live it.”
The best part? Last night, my husband saying, “I can do that (whatever the thing was); you help me too much.” He’s right. I need to help me more. I am so lucky. No, that’s not right. I’m lucky, but I’ve earned love.
Is anyone else going through a transformation?
In many ways, life is easier, less messy.
I know I am missing out, but I don’t seem to be able to be any other way right now.
I think that after the last 18 months, I needed to refocus.
And now?
I'm real. I'm difficult and messy, but I'm honest with my feelings.
All the fake in and around my life has drifted away.
I still have an abundance of love to give and receive, but I have time.
Yesterday a dear friend, who has been going through a similar transformation, said to me “I’m tired of waiting for my life to begin.” I know exactly how she feels. Maybe not in the same context… perhaps my declaration would sound something like, “I’m tired of waiting to live my life the way I want to live it.”
The best part? Last night, my husband saying, “I can do that (whatever the thing was); you help me too much.” He’s right. I need to help me more. I am so lucky. No, that’s not right. I’m lucky, but I’ve earned love.
Is anyone else going through a transformation?