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depression.again.
depressed again. too depressed to generate any words of my own, so here's what i managed to scrounge off somebody else's blog abt depression. the feelings are startlingly similar, so i figured why not. Credits for the actual words and pictures go to Allie Brosh of hyperbole and a half."The beginning of my depression had been nothing but feelings, ( Read more... ) -
Money or the lack thereof.
Tired of receiving hand outs from my girl.. It's very sweet of her I know but still.. I hate having to take it.
Trying desperately to find a job as long as it permits me to attend school.
Sometimes, I wonder why am I trying so hard for? I already know I'm complete rubbish at maths. Yet I still went into this. Feel like just fucking it all and go ( Read more... ) -
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not gnna be here much anymore. maybe once in a while to rant. all pte tho.
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Flibber flabber
Sometimes I wish we could buy our feelings from a vending machine and discard the ones we don't want as easily as used paper cups.
I don't wanna feel this way anymore.
Just wanna be numb.
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Crash n burn
Wish I could turn my emotions off. Volume set at max, earphones in. Trying to drown out the voices in my head. Itching to draw blood. Right now doesn't matter if it's mine or some unfortunate fucker who rubs me the wrong way.
Why God , did u make me so fucking fat and repulsive? Why am I so fucked up?
Food is suddenly a waste of time and money.
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Naturally.
Getting more n more depressed day by day.
She doesn't know n I doubt if she gives a shit.
The loneliness is gnawing away at me like a rat on cocaine.
Fuck this shit. I'm going drinking tonight.
Alone again. Naturally.
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Hurt
I hurt myself today,
to see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain,
the only thing that's real.
The needle tears a hole,
the old familiar sting.
Try to kill it all away,
but I remember everything.
What have I become?
My sweetest friend.
Everyone I know,
goes away in the end.
And you could have it all,
my empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.
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i clicked "post" cos i had a ton of stuff on my mind to unoad.
the minute the page loaded i have nothing i wanna put down anymore.
FML. -
Dream
last night i had the trippiest dream ( Read more... ) -
pox.
am thoroughly annoyed that chicken pox bubbles appear around my ears and on my scalp. damn irritating la!