"As a broken promise returns too late
Another sunset meets an argument.
Fade out of nowhere, into nothing, into nothing at all.
How did my love turn into something that you don't really want?"
It takes Luke standing in front of him for Reid to really feel it.

For him to totally and completely recognise the level of betrayal that has crawled in and ( Read more... )

"It's been a battle for too long,
And all my happiness has gone.
And kindness erases, a city of strangers-
Deep down in my bones,
All I wanna do is crawl back home to you.
You can get me through this cruel, cruel world."

Reid, unlike Luke, forgives himself no time to wallow in self pity.

There are things that need to be done. He has to get up and go to ( Read more... )

“And I can't believe it's come to this, all our secret codes and battleships.
Don't give up on our love story, when you can't go on.
Don't give up, it's always dark before the morning.
You'll be a brave heart, I'll be a lion's roar.”

It takes six weeks for Reid to relent. And even then, even then -

It's strained and awkward and uncomfortable.

"Reid?" ( Read more... )

“I know you keep your silence, I know that secret better than you
Sometimes all the matters of the heart are the chaos and the cowardice that keep us apart.
I know you wanna shut down, I know you think we're better alone.
Sometimes all the words are unsaid, but you listen to them argue every night in your head.
Just breathe in and out
All I want to do ( Read more... )

“If you want something broken, better give it to me
Got a way of disappointing that you wouldn't believe
I can take a good intention, turn it on it's head
I can make you pray to god and wish we'd never met.”

Luke allows himself a few moments of self pity.

If he's honest, it's more than a few moments. It could be weeks.

He sits alone in his mothers ( Read more... )

“And there's no other way there's no joy there's no meaning.
Just this hollowed out feeling.
Now all the love's gone, and nothing grows here, and I just feel wrong
So black out the sun.”

Reid doesn't cry, because Reid doesn't know how to cry.

He never has, even when his parents abandoned him (he still sees it as abandonment when he knows they were ( Read more... )

“Love, you're in pieces, there's no one left to lay you down.
Or say, 'it's okay' on the worst night, of the worst year
Though we might fall we'll go out punching.
You hit me like a subway train,
And I'll never be the same.”

"I need to tell you something." It's hesitant, it's cautious. Like he's making his first steps and he's looking around for ( Read more... )

“I made a stupid mistake and my world crashed down all around me
I made a stupid mistake and threw it all away
I got lazy on the wrong side of love, now I'm searching every face, every crowd for you.”
Somewhere between their first I love you and their last, something happens.

Something shifts, they start pulling away. Maybe it's Reid, maybe it's Luke.

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( half a world away. )

i've been afraid of changing, cause i built my life around you. 
but time makes you bolder. children get older. and i'm getting older too.