For every push forward, you get the same fucking push back.
You have nowhere to go, so you found someplace,
you have nothing to say you start lying
What the fuck were you thinking
I'm not sorry
I'd do it all again.
Now with all the lines so burred between hate, love, and revenge
Are just dead feelings.

so im left wondering if i was ever anything more than a clever distraction

man. i dunno what happened to the girl i cared about.

Im exhausted. The first person i ever loved is gone now. And, to some extent, its my fault. And I could kill myself for that. But this is life.
I've never felt this way before.
AJK you will always mean the world to me
-matthew.

ive been promised sex and/or money to update this so I shall

lets see.
I have a girlfriend. and not ajust a friend who happens to be a girl. a real one.
College is coming so damn fast
i already filled out my rommie selection and shit
i want to leave so bad at times, and at others i dread it.
ill update again later.
i promise/

Just for shits and giggles.
I figured id update.
life is too busy nowadays
and paula pedraza doesnt talkt o me, even when i try to tlakt o her
just throwing that out there.
hmm kinda moving on backwards...weird.

Well I always knew that the wave would break.
and i was kinda expecting it
but that shit was bananas.
what the fuck?
who says that.
anyways
71 school days left.
will I make it?
I have no clue
its not looking good, thats for sure.

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