im living in your letters...

[indulge_in_sin]

so i quit taking my medicine for about a week and i became completely miserable. so i started taking it again. and in the midst of sitting on my bed with the bottle in my hand, contemplating if i should take my meds again, i started thinking

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[crimsontearsx]

I know exactly how you feel ~ that's how it is between me and chris sorta. I get so insecure all the time and everyone tells me I shouldn't that he loves me that he's done so much for me that he's given up so much for me blah blah. But I still get insecure and jealous. And I know how you feel about the feelings thing - I don't want to tell him too much and make him not want to be with me anymore. I've been with him for almost 2 years now..and Im STILL scared that one day he's gonna leave me. But its not like it's his fault. It's mine.
Meh, anyways. ♥♥♥

[indulge_in_sin]

hey darling... i'm so adding you, just so you know.

it's nice to know someone knows how i feel... when you love someone, your emotions can get so intense. i've been with matt for almost a year, and i get so paranoid. uck, love can suck and feel wonderful all at the same time.

love ya tons, i hope we can hang out again, i had alot of fun. i'm sorry i threw up all over the place, but all you guys (kimi, you, shirley, and dana) made me feel so wanted it made me so happy.

♥caity

[crimsontearsx]

Haha okay :) I didn't want you to think I was a crazy stalker cause I found your journal. And to be quite honest - I have no clue HOW i found it...i just..did. lol

It does get pretty intense..and hard sometimes. For the first year of mine & chris's relationship..he was in virgina (stupid air force) and it used to get so hard cause I could never see him. Now I can so I feel lucky. It sucks getting paranoid, I always think he's gonna find some prettier, better girl or something. Meh. But obviously there's something about us that keeps both of our guys with us, so i'm sure we have nothing to worry about :)

I hope we can tooo!! I had tonsa fun! Eh, it happens. Trust me, john has done WAY worse than what you did..and we still love him :)

♥ Dee

hey booger girl

[popsiclezone]

i definitely used to do that, like a month ago (wipe my boogs on stuff like the couch) but i think i tried to stop it since i got a new couch lol. someone like you, thats one of my absolute favoritest movies. caity but forreal, be confident. i hope you feel good about yourself and your relationship with matt. you two are as adorable as you have been since day one. there are no "old cows" here. what you two have is something people should be jealous of. i love you lots and miss you and stuff, but most of all just take care of yourself and dont worry, things will all turn out fine!

Re: hey booger girl

[indulge_in_sin]

you're awesome, kimmy.

[dissolvemyheart]

well I don't know much about your relationship but from an outsiders view I can recommend that keeping how you feel bottled up is one thing, and letting things slide & not over-analyzing is another. you should always be honest in a relationship when possible, it simply eliminates the bullshit and makes things run smoother. & after letting him know what page you're on, by all means, let things slide. relax. don't focus on the things you can't change about him/you/the relationship.

that may sound like bullshit, but I sorta think because I'm never in a relationship I've seen many from the outside & I've learned from watching other people's mistakes.

it has definitaly gotta be caity times TWELVE. cus that would be caitycaitycaitycaitycaitycaitycaitycaitycaitycaitycaitycaity as opposed to caitycaitycaitycaity.

:)

[dissolvemyheart]

also, I must point out the ridiculous amount of run-on-sentances that just happened in that comment. I am ashamed of myself. hahaha

[indulge_in_sin]

thankkk you jill. regardless of what your experience is with relationships, it's obvious that you know what the hell you're talking about.

the only reason it's caity times 4 is because 4 is my favorite number... it's just so even... ( dont ask me to explain i'll go off on a tangent for a long ass time)
but i guess it could be twelve because twelve is a multiple of four and i guess that would work out...

i'm such a fucking nerd.

<3 you...!

[dissolvemyheart]

hahaa thank you. I try my best.

well, four is a good number. hahah oh man, we're dorks.

[sunshine_killer]

i love you so so so so much!
we have to hang out.
call me when you're free.
my schedule is staring to clear up besides work
♥

[indulge_in_sin]

otay!

[shutup_n_fight]

i cant wait for tonite! its gonna be HOT! I LOVE YOU!

♥

[brendan415]

So you needed a q-tip to push your nose ring out but you would pick your nose. Oh Caity, I love you.

[indulge_in_sin]

YOU're right, that makes NO sense. oh well. i love you too. <3