fic: You and me, we'd look so much better up-side-down

[indiesnopp]

Title:  You and me, we'd look so much better up-side-down
Fandom/Ship: White Christmas (drama), Jo Young Jae-centric, onesided! Young Jae/Eun Sung
Rating/Warnings: PG-13, Mentions of abuse, self harm, depression and minor disturbing imagery
Summary: He finds out quickly that the world can become a lot uglier when narrowed down to exist solely

Comments

[indiesnopp]

JOAAAAANNNNNEEEE! FOR ME? YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE!

I have this obsession with Young Jae's obsession with Eun Sung. I love how in the show there were all these little hints that he basically stalked her and they had this weird little relationship where they'd only show the truest ugliest sides of themselves when they were alone together. Self depricating and angry children with mommy issues!

I'm so glad that some elements from the show could show itself in the fic! It was just what I was going for.

"I feel like I’m reading an extract from one of the creepy, gore filled serial killer novels I used to consume as a teen, and it’s the best feeling ever."

JUST WHAT I WAS GOING FOR! When he said "Become twisted enough for a twisted boy like me to like you" I just wanted all the creepy and twisted fics taking place in Young Jae's head. I love me some gore too!

I love yoooou~~
<3

[penny_lane_42]

Young Jae really does come across to me as an abuse victim compensating for his victimization, so this background strikes me as realistic.

A memory and a grudge means nothing when you’re the only one holding it, so Young Jae fills his head with things that are constant. Historical facts, lines from books and rows of equations becomes his new memories. His teachers still despise him, but his test scores are the best his school has ever seen and this becomes his saving grace of sorts, because this is what gets him into Susin.

Okay, that bit about memory and grudge is AWESOME, and I LOVE the reasoning you've got here for how he came to Susin. YES.

Yoon Eun Sung is the perfect white canvas of beauty and Young Jae feels like he’s a fine layer of black dust on it’s surface just by being in the same room as her.

PERFECT.

The name sticks and there’s a small sense of pride that fills him that it was her who gave it to him. The hate he feels for her judgement is tinged with elation that Yoon Eun Sung got her spotless hands dirty in his

[indiesnopp]

The way Young Jae seems to desperately cling to this need of being hated and feared rather that pitied, really makes me see him as an abuse victim compensating too. He's also clearly doing alot to repress his memories of abuse and that explains all his nightmares.

Young Jae must have hoped to have a better life at some point and that he must've been smart enough to be able to attend and keep himself in the school housing the top 1% of the country.

I kind of love the way you ship them.

only in the unhealthiest way, my dear~ The way he looks at her is bordering on sick and it's even sicker that she plays clueless to it in front of the others, but when they were alone she was fully aware of what he was feeling and even taunted him about it. These two are the worst.

I wish I could stop with these fucked up pairings augh...

Thank you so much! It makes me so happy that you liked it! And I'm happy to show you a bit of my brain and make you see why I shipped them haha<3

[lan_ting]

so so so