le sigh......................................

i'm sick of being so sick and tired of.............. everything.

i feel like i've lost faith in everything... i just wish there was something i could put faith in.. but i really can't think of anything.

i really am becoming to expect nothing from life.

so tired... so tired...

i just can't believe this anymore..... i honestly i can't. i've seen the extremity of far far far far far too many things this year... it's almost sickening. i feel like i've completely run dry.... i don't even know what to think of things anymore. to hell and back. russell will never be the same again. this school year has been an eternity....

To my niggaz ( Read more... )

i've decided i'm definitely going to join the peace corps before i die. isnt happening for a good while though. there's a part of me that i dont feel i'll be able to put to rest anywhere else ( Read more... )

i saw katie luther's senior recital today. we sang together about a year ago for my recital. it's crazy to look back at how different everything was back then. i feel like a completely different person... back then i was proud of myself, i felt accomplished, i felt respected, i was happy, i was in love, i was excited and ready to take on the world ( Read more... )

mmm finally... my own room, bed, bathroom..... its been far too fucking long ( Read more... )

The dumb slut in the other bedroom is blasting my chemical romance and has been all morning... i feel like gouging my eyes out ( Read more... )

I got NARCed on again. some kid called the police and said i was having a party at about 4AM on tuesday. So the cops and ACD come knocking on my door and i wake up and answer the door completely out of it... it was 4 in the fucking morning and i had class the next day. I answered the door and the first thing the cop says to me is "Sir there was a ( Read more... )

i had the best new years eve/night of my life last night.

i'm ready to start a new year for sure. everything is definitely changing for the better. fresh beginning =). i'm definitely excited for next semester and everything this upcoming year has to offer.

happy fucking new years every body!!!!

=D

merry fucking xmas


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