well tomorrow is christmas eve and i have spent more money on jared then i have ever spent in one time... ahaha.. i love it ( Read more... )

ONE YEAR AGO jared asked me out.. and im so in love with him still.. it doesnt feel like a whole year went bye...

love every day we have had and hope all the days in the future are just as memorable.. i love him and hate that he has to work until 10pm.. hmm ....

love him and my life without him wouldnt be the same

well sense i quit i was missing it and went back to meet the new boss.. and uh the new boss told me he would take me back under MY conditions.. soo.. i work at alpine again.. just not such long days.. and i get to work whenever i want. so it works out.

no long ass days. just restless ones.

i quit my second job.. at alpine because it was too hard to work a double shift every day i worked.... it made me feel very alone because the one i loved was never around because i was always gone.. and i didnt like that feeling of him not there. so i had to let it go and get some rest so i could recharge myself for a chance to see my bear and not ( Read more... )

havent updated in a long time..

got a phone.. call me.. all of you

2486227753

do it. do it.

IM NOW 18!!!....

off to the casino.. i am also getting a cell phone so if you guys want to call me i will let you all know the number..

bye

My birthday is on tuesday and i feel im not celebrating it with barely anyone.. just my love and my family.. sucks kinda.. no one wants to hang out with me on my birthday.. or ever ( Read more... )

i think im finally okay with my life for now. i mean where im at isnt bad and its not where i want to be but uh.. no one is where they want to be ( Read more... )

almost 18... still trapped in the life of a 15 year old ( Read more... )

nothing new.. drama at work. ass holes at work.. old angry people at work.. and i work all the time. when i dont work i am sleeping... usually on jared because he still is with me when i sleep ( Read more... )