he's too old for me, but wtfever. 
well actually, maybe not?

how old is too old?

im still going for it. 
ill probably regret it later, since i hate all this relationship crap.

but seriously, it's got to at least develop into a great friendship.

lsu . 
definitely.

im seeing some friends recently that i hadnt gotten to hang out with in a while, so that's good. i almost feel like have to cram in time with everyone before next year. not that ill be away all the time, but still.

 im finally beginning to understand who my real friends are. it's honestly just the greatest feeling in the world. and i'm happier than i can rememeber having bee for a longggg time. im starting to see who exactly is going to be around next year, once high school is done. it's a kinda scary thought. but it's a good thing ( Read more... )

 school is so impossible. 
it might be easier, if i was actually willing to try. 
LSU, here I come.

also, I know a girl with a problem. a SERIOUS problem. it's either one of the worst self esteem issues ive ever seen, or shes a pathological liar. Like, to the point where she needs help. a lot of help.

ive just been feeling like i'm not doing my part. 
im doing my best, but it's just as if there aren't enough hours in the day. 
i truly dont understand how i could possibly do more, but i just have to. 
i'm not used to being this clueless. or maybe helpless is the word im looking for.

"you're asking me, will my love grow? i don't know, i don't

I dont even know what to think of it anymore.
it's beautiful and it's a trainwreck and it's completely organized and it's spiraling out of control.

i've lost my head in all this and i know that no one even know what im talking about but i had to get that out.

for some reason, i feel like it's still all trapped inside.

so im getting my frist tatto pretty soon, i think... 
if i can find an artist around here that ill trust with it. 
if not ill head to nola and get it done there.
hopefully within the nest month or so?

i still havent been out since i turned 18. wtf?

it's been a while because ive pretty much been out of town since the 15th. so here we go -

LYS was, of course, the best week of my year. i couldnt have asked for anything better even though my group, compared to my past two years there, was absolutely horrid. there were some amazing people in it, but also some who just completely tore it apart. ( Read more... )

too bad i almost got busted on friday. and not by my parents. we've gotta be more careful about checking on places before we go to them, in case he's there too.

people are going camping on monday. im definitelyyyy jealous. why cant it just be summer already?? seriously, i'm beyond giving up on school. so whatever.

i keep forgetting to have people ( Read more... )

i did it. 
i finally freaking did it.
i couldn't be prouder.

ooh, and i got a little surprise today.

aaaaand, s;ogerojh

balkan came innnn!!!