so today i guess was just a really odd day. . .i mean it went the usual way it always goes, bus, school, bus again, horse, working of some sort. but i just was thinking alot today which got me all disorriented. i was thinking about what i would do with a million dollars, like they talk about in the movie Office Space. and honestly, i think that ( Read more... )

fell in love w/ this band. . .elliot smith. . .well its actually just this one guy singing. its all acoustic and its so beautiful. you see, he stabbed himself in the heart a few years back and died of suicide. apparently he was incredibly depressed.

billy i love you more than the world. <3

[molly] xox

school sux. . .thats the easiest way to put it. i feel sick, and i just got home from my bf's house. he is so great tho. totally supportive of me n' my issues, and he just always is looking out for me. i guess thats one of the things that makes me love him sooo much. anyway, my weekend was good. friday, i skipped work and went to billy's and ( Read more... )

the hatered i have towards myself doesn't even bother me anymore. i mean it brings me down, sure, but like i can move on. im quitting my job @ Pine Run. i dont exactly know why, but like im having trouble in school and i just want to live for once.

i will let you down, i will make you hurt. . .[nin]

so school was totally unsuccessful. not only did i not make it to any of my classes, but i got sent home. i pretty much had a major anxiety attack, and frankly, they didnt want to deal with me. now its been 3 years now that i have had these issues at school. . .

*not being able to make it

*freaking out randomly

*anxiety off the walls

yet they still ( Read more... )

love: the most fatal disease known to mankind.

i love you billy.

[molly] xox