on food and hating myself

[im_doing_me]

most days i am not capable of eating until at least noon, my body doesnt want/wont deal with it. beyond that, most days i dont eat until even later because i forget and or im just busy and dont get a chance. i usually get hungry for real around 3 or so most days if i havent eaten by then, but there are days, like today, where i ignore it as long

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i know it's hard but

[alapoet]

don't give up on you.

[oceancurrents]

just came here to say i love you and offer my support, as you very well i know, i know exactly how you feel!

<3

[heardthatnoise]

*snuggle*
Sometimes when we feel the least in control we pick the easiest thing in our lives to control. The relationship with food is such a complicated one...it's so hard.

I love you, and I know it's hard for you. I'm glad you were able to talk about it.

Be good to yourself. You do deserve it. I promise.

[ooper67]

I'm behind on this, but I wanted you to know that I have totally been there. I have hated myself enough that the idea of cooking food and eating it was more effort than I was worth and my hunger pains made me feel virtuous not in an "OMG I am going to lose weight" way, but an "look, I can control what I give you, body! Ha!" way.

YMMV, but what helped me a lot was try to have someone else to cook for relatively often. If I invited someone over or agreed to cook for my roommate or made plans to go out with someone for dinner or *something* then my caretaker instinct would override the other stuff and I would cook and be embarrassed enough to at least eat a little. Writing it out now, it probably was not a very healthy tactic, but it got the job done at the time.