so this afternoon i told brian that i was done with all of this going back and forth stuff because it was just stressing me out and i couldn't take it anymore, so i get home from work and im kind of depressed i don't know why and i get online and he ims me and then he says "so..i know we are like broken up and stuff but do you want to come spend ( Read more... )

So today was extremely long considering i was bitched out last night till around 12:30 and didn't get to sleep until around 2. I love how he points out my every flaw and makes me feel like shit, its wonderful, and how he says he "loves me" but them proceeds to tell me how hot my friends are. hmm my self esteem is sky high let me tell you. Its cool ( Read more... )

so my last entry in lj was over 2 years ago..but im grounded and provided with way more time than i know what to do with, therefore desperate times call for desperate measures and here i am. this year is so much different than anything i have ever experienced. I looked forward to this year, thought it was going to be some great thing. School pretty ( Read more... )

this week has been pretty awful. school sucks as usual, daniel won't even look at me and i don't know what i did?, his gf hates me even though i apologized, people are driving me crazy, and last but not least i got lost at the christmas parade last night ( Read more... )

im glad thats all it took to remind you i wasn't worth it

your fake and i can't stand it

And I'd give up forever to touch you ( Read more... )

im feeling things i shouldn't feel.

wow this year is tough. seemingly constant drama. super hard classes. work. boys ( Read more... )

i love how im taking notes for psychology about stress, and everything i write is how i feel. joys. i need to quit my job and get some sleep.

so today was my first official slacker day. i had work last night, and i spent the weekend with my mom. so i didn't do any hw. so i decided to stay home today. i feel crappy b/c i know i should have just done it and gone to school, but it was nice to sleep in till 10:30 and get all my stuff done at a normal unstressed pace. im going to get a new ( Read more... )