really why does anyone still log onto thid thing i mean i forget about if for like years at a time but i keep coming back hmmmm somethig to ponder if anyone still checks his thing let me kooowo we ca be best friends forever

no one reads this shit man no one cares but ill post why not you know hahaha 2 years ago this time i waas bitching about goin to college andhowmuch i hated it and now that i got my wish and had to come home and worked my ass off for these past two years and after all the work my entire family is leaving maybe i should have stayed in well lifes ( Read more... )

almost x-mas and i still feel like a dousche haha oh well fuck the holidays you know wat i want for xmas i want college to be over and i want to move on with my life already this is deffinately the worst fuckin stage of it

i wanna get outta here i am not where i belong i am really resentful of all the desicions that i allowed my mother to make for me i cant believe i let her choose my path and all of the choices i made were so she can be happy but you know wat i realize now almost to late that i cant let my life be decided by others i need t make these choices for me ( Read more... )

i hope she never loses her smile and that i will be the one to help her keep it and i wont ever let her down

...... if only she really knew :/

i feel like destroying something beautiful

college = gay thats prettymuch the basis for all my entries tho so yea sorry for being repetitive but its soo dang true so any way how is every one you know i mean like the 3 frieds i have on tis thing i wonder if you guys are even like my freinds any more that would suck if you werent id feel like a douche so im goin to bed after a shower any1 ( Read more... )

so umm yea i got pwned again oh well i guess is should've realized a longdistance thing wouldnt havw worked it just sux realizing that i will not find happines while i am here there is no motivation for me here i guess when i fail put the worst my mom can do is throw me out but i can find a job hahaha dammit i always fuck up nothing ever fucking ( Read more... )

yea so live journal huh cool i am comin home in like 2 days i acant wait to see my friends i dont like college at all i think i am gonna drop out its not worth it ill just get a job to bad my mother will kill me b4 i get the chance yea she doesnt understand its pointles for me to be here my teachers are braindead and make so many mistakes its like ( Read more... )

soooooo 1 week till my b-day and i will be legal ahahahaha yea thars bout it peace