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it's always hard to leave the east bay ( Read more... )

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more depressed than i have been in a long time. heavy-limbed, weighted down, so much effort to breathe and still i can't get to sleep. close the blinds, lock the door, cover up the red light on the record player, hide the clock's green face. everything seems like a bad omen - spider dropping down onto my shoulder, dead bird in the road. no one here ( Read more... )

nervous twitch, made worse by the caffeine that i buy to kill an appetite that i cannot support. homeless for now, no access to my possessions. ex ex ex ex. regretting most of everything i've done, but at least i still have a foundation of hope. even without that (and it would take more than this, more than you to destroy that), i have a bedrock of ( Read more... )

today is for regrets, all the people who i've mistakenly given my love to, all the places i stayed in too long or left too soon, all the half-written stories, the half-smoked cigarettes, the half-lived lives. i've got that restless summer itch, and i can't decide to move forward or backward. so i'll just stay here. something awful will happen and i ( Read more... )

nyc 031906-032606. greyhound+benzodiazepines---->4 best friends+20 polaroids (stolen)+cigarettes on the fire-escape+famous alcoholics+winter coats+museums+____.

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