The universe is blowing me away right now ( Read more... )

Rejection stings.

My head is still spinning.

I hate it when someone asks me what's wrong. It makes me crumble.

I have found myself a suitable distraction.

He is gorgeous, exotic, accented, intelligent, extremely hard working, mysterious, chivalrous, sensitive, sweet, strong but vulnerable, and somehow he's head over heels for me. I can trust him. He is not a boy. He's a man.

He is exactly what I need right now.

I don't usually dream about people that I'm romantically involved with. If I ever dream about someone I'm interested in, it's usually a celebrity, but even that is somewhat rare. Last night, I dreamed that I met up with Ben some night, like I've been hoping I might get the chance to. In my dream, he saw me writing or signing my name, and said my ( Read more... )

It has been confirmed that he is indeed in New Zealand. He is set to return shortly before I leave Cairns. Helpful, but not helpful ( Read more... )

My coworkers talked me into sending another text message. Since it's been a whole month now, they thought it's been enough time and I've given him enough space to make contact again. Then it dawned on me. He said he had plans for a six week trip to New Zealand with the girlfriend, even though the trip sounded like it'd be cancelled. I am almost ( Read more... )

Three weeks have passed now without seeing him, or hearing anything about him. No one seems to know what's going on with him, if he's even still involved in the place. I'm trying my best not to ask too many questions to seem nosy and desperate. I noticed his hat on the shark. I don't remember the hat being there on Thursday, but then it was there ( Read more... )

Another week has passed and I haven’t seen or heard from him ( Read more... )

It's been a rough week ( Read more... )